Sill sick = time to think

Wow I am still sick, better, but still not well, So I stayed home today. But I will be back at work tomorrow, I can’t miss anymore time!!! The end of the month will kill me!!!

So with being home sick, but not sleepy at all today, I have had some time to think. I realized that this blog has turned away from a healthy lifestyle and to a whatever blog. Well actually I have turned into a whatever sort of person again, and I don’t like that. I was catching up on blogs today and I think Skinny Me Said it best. That in order to really life an active healthy lifestyle we need to be in routine and sacrifice alot to stay in that routine.

My problem is that I am not a fan of routine. I mean we have one, we go to work we come home we have supper lalala, but if something comes up or plans change, I go with it. If I was putting exercise in and something better came up I would opt out with no problems. I think I need to start looking at rewards for myself to be active, and healthy.

I also like that some of the other ladies are not weighing themselves for a while and just focusing on the habits not the results. While I am not sure if I am ready for that yet I need to find some motivation for me to do well.

So what does everyone thing, should I start tracking my food again?? How do other people plan their days out??

I live a fair distance from any sort of gym so for me I either need to do it right after work, which has never really lasted, or find other activates to do at home, and I hate walking as I live on a major road with not much nice things to look at. I have a planner, or 2 or 3, and I use my work calendar too, but I can’t seem to scheduled anything around my life outside of work!!! It is driving me nuts!!!

So if any one has any tips that would be awesome!

Feeling incredibly Ill

Ok so I went to work, and I did my job and thankfully (well not for Dean) Dean called and wanted to go home early because he is now sick again!

I have been taking cold medication, my puffer and Tylenol all day, and the only time I felt remotely well was once I had a nice shower. I have a fever of 100.7 which isn’t huge but for me with a usual normal of 96.7 it’s a big deal.

Me and Dean napped when we got home, and ate mom’s lacking supper of fried pork chops and potatoes and mixed veggies, not that if it was an amazing supper i would have  been able to taste it. So tonight we have basically sat around and mopped about feeling sick. I won’t be going to work tomorrow and i can only imagine how behind I will be, but I need to get better!!!

Hope everyone else is well and healthy!!

Sick Sunday

OMG I hate being sick!

I did have a good weekend though, couldn’t let that stop me! Yesterday we didn’t do a whole lot we headed over to Lynn and J’s and relaxed with them. The boys played some video games and me and Lynn just talked about stuff.

I forgot to mention that she was nice enough to come to my Papa’s funeral and I so appreciated it. Thank you!!!

Dean made an awesome supper. Sticky Lemon Chicken, from Gordon Ramsey's cookbook, Dean idolizes him and he really does have some good recipes, even though they sometimes need alot of ingredients. We shared a bottle of wine and watches a stand up comedy act. We had started to watch a movie but we all started falling asleep.

This morning I woke up sick, uck. We had alot of Laundry to do, which is mostly all done, and we went to get groceries. Dean made some yummy brownie muffins for the week, and he is making pasta for supper tonight! I am so excited, I just hope I can taste it through this cold!!

This week I will be heading back to work and I just know that I will be busy and have a crazy week. But as long as I feel better it will be good because I will get to be occupied.

Hope everyone has a good week!!!

The remembrance of a good man.

Ok, well after an exhausting week I am now glad to say that I think the worst is over. My Papa’s funeral was today and it was a very good one I must say.

I must say though, I am not feeling the fast food anymore, after eating it Tuesday and Wednesday and eating out yesterday and again today I want a home cooked meal.

The past few days have been very busy. Running to the funeral home and back, and running around town printing off pictures. And today amongst all the stress, driving out to Beaverbank and back and then back and forth again with my Aunt who is in a home out there.

Me and Dean did take advantage of out well dressed selves and went for supper at the Mongoli Grill tonight, and I enjoyed that. But this weekend will be spend doing Laundry and relaxing and taking care of me. I go back to work Monday and will be very busy with the end of my month things. 

 

This is my Papa, his parents, my Dad and Me!

In Memory or Lawrence Clark – Oct. 20/2009

Well yesterday was a sad day for our Clark Clan.

If anybody knows my Papa (grandfather) has been fighting skin cancer for a while. Back about 2 years ago he went up to Hamilton with little success, and it has been a downward slop from there. He was also Diabetic and developed diabetic neuropathy which lead to him recently losing one leg just below the knee.

We had been prepared for a family meeting tomorrow to look at placement options, knowing he was stubborn and wouldn’t want to go anywhere but home. However in the early morning he passed away. And he was comfortable.

So yesterday was spent letting people know and getting my father, his son, home from Ontario where is is working. It was a late night but over all a good day, I can’t say tears weren't shed but time spent with family also has to be quality good time, and it was that.

Today will be rough as well, we are going to the funeral home to make the arrangements. I am thankful that work has given me the rest of the week off and I can spend this time with my family and myself. We weren't close but we where family.

I am so mad to say that I don’t have any recent pictures and that I only have old ones, I have a few still to scan but haven't gotten there yet.

 

RIP Papa, you are in a better place now.

Not a very good blogger.

Well I must say that I am not a very good blogger. And I am not a very committed person to myself either.

Why is it that it is so hard for women to take care of themselves? I know what I should do, I know how to do it. But why everything and everyone that crosses my path seems to make an excuse for me.

Needless to day I didn’t get my reward, and I didn’t even really care. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?. So this week I don’t even know where I stand. I didn’t lose/gain any weight so that is good I guess, but I just am not motivated.

What do other people do to motivate them??? Can some one help me find some realistic goals to work towards??

Help!?

Ugh work…

Ugh work today… woke up before dawn, it was cold I was still sleepy, although glad to be woke up from my nightmare.

Work was long, wasn’t as busy as excepted but our residents are still confined to the floor. I had a little freak out at a staff but am ok now.

The evening will be resting and preparing to do it all again tomorrow.

For my goals;

• I didn’t eat that well today. I had cereal and milk for breakfast (no fruit there). I was going to have the pineapple but turns out it was bad. My morning snack was a few cookies and a muffin, followed by lunch that was pizza and cheese and crackers. Supper was hot turkey sandwiches, with peas. So there is one veggie… well guess I won’t be getting my make-up. Oh well keep going.
• I definitely ate white carbs today, with pizza and hot turkey sandwiches, the cracker where whole wheat though and they were multi-grain cheerio's!
• No exercise today, it’s rainy and cold and suppose to snow tonight!
• I also didn’t take the stairs at work today, I don’t really know if i just didn’t remember or if I was lazy. Maybe I can save myself and try for 2 times tomorrow!
• And here is my blog, and I am going to say something negative because it will get off my chest. With all that is going on in my life, I am hating that fact that my mother cannot be a positive, or even neutral influence, but insists on making comments about things!!!!!!

Thats it for tonight, I am going to cross-stitch and realx!

Thanksgiving Monday

Good evening everyone, I am glad to say that after a 4 day weekend I am actually glad to be going to work tomorrow! It will get me out of this house!

However today was a very productive day. We had Thanksgiving dinner yesterday so we didn’t have so much mess today. So we made stock – turkey stock, and lots of it!

So now we have enough stock for a bit to make lots of yummy stuff that Dean is learning in school!

I was quite proud of my breakfast this morning, even though Dean needed to help save it from being scrambled.

A yummy omelette with mushrooms, spinach, ham and cheese!   

Supper was also interesting, home made chow mien, steak and mashed potatoes, presented nicely on a plate.

 

After supper it was still nice out so we headed to the trail for a nice walk and talk. I also got some pictures of the nice fall sunset.

      

 

 

Now on to my goals for the week.

• I got 3 servings of vegetables and fruit in today. I was going to have some pineapple with chocolate syrup but Dean took out a cheese cake from the freezer, and lets face it, It looks better (it has strawberries on it if that counts??)
• I didn’t have toast today for breakfast I instead chose to have my omelette. I didn’t have any white bread today except for a home made roll that was left over from yesterdays dinner.
• I went for a half hour walk today with Dean, it was very relaxing. I also did “wood” which basically means stacking it from one place to another.
• And finally I am blogging, and I don’t think any thing was negative! Go me!

  Night everyone, I am ready for a 4-day work week!!

Waiting for the world to change

Ok here we go, I am done waiting for other people to change. I think for a long time I have waited for others to change around me so I could feel comfortable changing too. Well that is enough of this bullshit. I know now that the only one who can change me, is me. And while I have amazing support from people like my husband, I don’t have that support in all areas of my life (my mother unfortunately being one of them).

So with out further ado here is my plan, I am going to start small with a weekly goal.

• Eat 3 – 4 servings of fruits and vegetables a day. While this is not up to par with what we should all eat, this is a challenge for me and I will strive to get better each week.
• Reduce the amount of refined breads/cereals I eat. Last Friday was grocery day so we have bought white bread, but this Friday when we go again I will buy whole wheat and get all the chemical crap out of my system.
• Exercise 2 – 3 times this week. Right now Deans gym membership is up so I am only looking at today and Saturday as big exercise days. But I will get something else in there somewhere.
• Take the stairs at work once a day (I work on the 5th floor). That means up, in my head I plan to take them down all the time, but we will see. However I think once a day will work wonders for me to start with.
• Blog everyday, trying to stay in the positive and not the negative. I am very good at being negative, and it is probably one of my downfalls, so I am only allowing myself one negative comment to blog on a day. Everything else will hopefully focus on the positive or what I can do to be better.

So if I can do good with this for the week I am going to reward myself with something from Clinique. I get my makeup there and want something new, so that will be it.

Food Addiction

So one of the things I did on the weekend was borrow some books from Lynn. One was called Food Addiction. I started looking through it at her place but had to stop because all of the information, even in the first few pages, hit home with me so hard I was ready to have an anxiety attack. 

So when I got home today I started reading it, I’m on page 17 and it has now become evidently clear that I am a Food Addict. Wow there is it out here for everyone to see now… So since this is the case, and I have been having a very hard time with dealing with this most of the afternoon I have come down to 2 choices.

1. I am a food addict and I can fight the addiction, which will be hard, time consuming and emotionally draining.

OR

2. I live with the addiction until I am either consumed by it or feel I have the will power to fight it.

The truth of the matter is I don’t know what do to. I have been back and forth on this for a very long time with these very issues. There are days where I think I am not that unhealthy, and then there are days where I want to change it. So all this means, using my nursing knowledge, is that I am in the pre-contemplation stage of my addiction. I have accepted that it is there, but I am not ready to do anything about it, but am thinking of doing something in the future.

All that being said I am in need of help, I have great supports through my friends and my husband. So I will think about this tonight, very hard. But as I am sitting here thinking now, I can’t go back to denial, and I don’t won’t be someone who is addicted to something, something as  basic as food. So I will read on through the book, I will educate myself about my addiction and then come up with a game plan.

Until I come up with a true game plan I will focus on eating right. We spent all afternoon cooking and baking healthy things and I want them and everyday will be a challenge.

A wonderful weekend.

Morning bloggers, hope everyone is having a good weekend. Mine has been good so far and will probably get better. The only complaint I have is that I don’t have pictures… I am so bad for that. But to see some head over to Lynn’s blog for the events of yesterday.

Well I’ll start with Friday which was a busy day at work, followed by groceries and Dean making an awesome supper of Salmon, rice and Spaghetti Squash, which is one of my new favourite vegetables! We relaxed with a bottle of wine and hit bed at a good hour.

Saturday was awesome, Lynn called early to see if we wanted to head in to town to do some shopping so we got ready and away we went. We headed to Chapters which was awesome, we still had a gift card from the wedding for there and ended up getting a good load of books. I am excited to be reading!!

We headed back to Lynn and Jays and hung around, Lynn made an awesome supper and we shared a bottle of wine. We then played some poker and I won!! Ha-ha, felt good even though it wasn’t real money. We also played some Scrabble and Lynn made me a header for my blog which I love! It’s so girly!!!

Unfortunately this morning I feel sick, my floor at work has a cold going around and of course I caught it on the weekend!!grrrr. So today we only have a few baking things to do and then I will relax with my books I think. All in all it will be a wonderful weekend!!!

still searching

Good Evening.

I am sad to report I am still soul searching. I have had a few crappy days and I am sure I am driving my loving husband crazy!

I hate to whine, and whimper but I will be honest in saying that I am. I don’t know what is wrong with me, I don’t know if it’s ever going to sink in.

Part of me thinks I need to go to counselling or something. Or get medical help to feel better about myself. And it’s not just my weight, or my image, its just how I feel in general.

It’s Wednesday already and I am exhausted. I cannot wait for the weekend. and it will go way too fast, I just know it. well that’s about it, I don’t feel I can blog well when I have too many thoughts all mixed up in my head.

I will leave everyone with this though, could you please send a prayer for my Papa?

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Soul Searching

Well I must say I haven't been following my plan, at all. And I am very discouraged about it. I know I want this, I know I need it. If I didn’t want it then I wouldn’t settle and I could leave it all and not care, but I can’t seem to do that, I’ve tried.

So now I am doing this, Dean will help me and I am asking anyone and everyone for help. I am scared to fail again, and I am really thinking this is almost impossible, but I will do it.

So I need help with some creative healthy snacks and meals. I also need some help finding some activity that I will enjoy. I used to enjoy walking but where we are at now the scenery is the highway and I find that very dull and boring. I would love to have something at home like a treadmill or something but there honestly isn’t any room. Me and Dean will still go to the gym, and I am honestly going to try to do 40 minutes on the cardio machines.

I am done making up excuses and done not doing things, I have the support and there is no reason I can’t do this!!!!

WWE Weekend

Good Evening bloggers, hope everyone had a safe and happy weekend. I know I did. So Saturday morning showed up early when the clock showed 6:40 and I was wide awake. So up I got and Dean made me some wonderful scrambled eggs! We puttered around the house for a while, I got the wedding pictures on CD and Dean cleaned up and packed a bit for our night at the Delta Barrington! We left the house around 1030 and went to Wal-Mart where I printed off the Wedding pictures and I’ll tell ya there were alot of them! So after that we got some lunch and I stopped at work to drop off some timbits to my staff and pick up my coffee thermos. We checked into the Delta and had a drink at the lounge then went up to our room!

Then after relaxing a bit we walked up to Bubba Rays Sports bar. Dean had gone there for his Bachelor party and said they had 50 different types of sauces to go on Chicken wings. I definitely had to try it!!

 

After supper we headed down to the Metro Center to wait for the doors to open for WWE RAW! We got there really early and had some good shots to take of Citadel Hill.

  So the doors opened and we went it. It was a good event and my first time seeing it live. But I must admit I like it better on TV! After the event we went to the casino with some friends where they were having UFC. Now I used to like MMA but haven't been much of a fan lately. So me and Dean went out on the floor and played some machines. We put 30 $ in and on our very last play we won 30 $! So we left with nothing out of our pockets! We headed back to our hotel room where we received a lovely surprise of 2 Cheese plates and glasses of wine because we had mentioned at the front desk we got married last weekend.   And then we went to bed.

Today was good, we got up and went to breakfast. We ran some errands and then came home and are relaxing for the evening. The week should be a good but busy one, but I am going to try my hardest to eat good and exercise!

It’s Friday!!!

Good evening bloggers. I took a break yesterday because my day wasn’t all that exciting and my food was about the same as it’s been all week. I did get to the gym and I was so sleepy when I got home that I sat in front of the TV and napped most of the evening.

Today though was a pretty good day overall and I am soooo glad it’s Friday!

Work was a good day, I love the staff I worked with today and I hadn’t seen them since I have been back and she was so excited to hear about the wedding, and since my pictures are on Facebook now I got to show them to alot of people.

I got off and we headed home, Dean made supper and it was awesome, Steak and baked potatoes with mashed sweet potatoes! Then we came down to relax and got a upsetting call. Deans parents live in Winnipeg and their 17 year old dog (yea old!) had to be put down today because she was full of cancer. It was upsetting and we are all sad, but at 17 it is safe to say she lived a good life, and all doge go to heaven!!!

So tonight we are relaxing and getting excited for tomorrow where we go to a WWE Raw house event at the metro center. We also have a room booked at the Delta Barrington and are looking at this as a little honeymoon!

My Dad goes back to Ont. Tomorrow which kind of sux but he has been home for 2 weeks and had a good vacation, now its time for everyone to relax and get back into a routine!

 

First day back at it.

Well today was my first day back to work as MRS. Anderson. It was a good day not much to catch up on (that might be since I was getting my e-mails at home…) And over all a productive day. I had to wait for Dean to pick me up but I sat outside and read a bit. Then we ran some errands on the way home.

I am fundraising for the 5 Center unit fund and we are keeping our bottles from the unit to bring in. Today which was our first bag was 3.10 – which is pathetic. I am trying to find some other good ways to fundraise but I am not sure what to do. Does anyone have any ideas of what to do???

I finished Time Travelers Wife and have started Cujo. I am not sure if I will like it. But I do like Stephen King so we shall see. I don’t have alot to choose from right now on my book shelf and maybe that is a hint to start some cross-stitching… I’ll see after this week.

My review of The Time Travelers Wife is a 3.5 out of 5. And while it was better than the movie I found it  hard to read and wasn’t really happy with the ending. But I would recommend it, especially if you have seen the movie.

So my eats today were all over the board. Breakfast started with a strawberry ricekrispy square and some vanilla milk. I often find waking up at 5:00 that I am nauseated and can’t eat alot.  I then had a coffee, and think I put a little too much cream in it. I was offered to split fish and chips with a co-worker and did so… yea I know bad me, but it tasted good. And then had my salad that I packed. I also had some yogurt and a granola bar at work. Supper was spaghetti with ground pork and mushrooms, yummy! there may have been some garlic fingers in there too….

So now I am all settled in for the evening, not sure what we are going to do yet. I would like to watch a movie but if I mention it I know I will be the one to have to pick one…

Nite everyone!

The start of the evening posts.

Good evening bloggies, this is the start of my evening posts. The way I see it most of my posts will be in the evening after I get home from work.

So today was productive. I finished the laundry and am almost finished my book. I have about 70 pages left and about 2 – 3 hours to read it… yea it might happen.

I also got most of my wedding pictures in order to put on a disk and facebook and things like that. Here are some of my fave’s:

Ok so there they are! And that is just some of them. So after my morning I headed in with Mom and Dad and met Dean and we headed to the gym! I only did 25mins on the treadmill, but better than nothing. Then we ran a few errands and came home.

The afternoon was relaxing, and then we had a nice supper. Followed by me making salad for the next 3 days of work! That is right I cannot complain about making lunches as all the hard work is done! Now me and Dean are relaxing on the couch and waiting for the season premier of The Biggest Loser!

So my eats today were kind of good kind of bad. Breakfast was some raisin toast with butter and a yogurt. I didn’t have a snack through the morning which was good in a way because while I was waiting for Dean at Sobeys I had Chicken Tenders and Taters… Then on the way home we bought a small pack of mini eggs (that's right they are around all year). Supper was yummy shake n bake chicken and baked potatoes with peas. So I am thinking not too bad. I don’t know what will happen for a small snack tonight, maybe some pudding…. Anyway tomorrow is back to work….

Last day of vacation:(

Good morning, well today is my last day of vacation. I didn’t get an evening post in about my eats last night because I was not feeling great and just wanted to read my book. I am reading The Time Travellers Wife. It is good and I am enjoying it. I am going to try to finish it off today though.

So my eats yesterday started off good. Breakfast was cereal with a banana on top. Then I had a snack of 1 cup of melon (honeydew and cantaloupe). For Lunch I finished off the Chinese food that was in the fridge. It was so bad as most of it was chow mien. Then I took the turn for the worse. There was still chips and chip dip left so I dived into that. Blah, I felt guilty but what could ya do? So Supper was roast beef mashed potatoes and carrots and was very good. Then me and Dean had to go out for a few things and I bought some pop (non diet), grrr. And rounded the night out with popcorn, but I didn’t eat the whole bag!

Today I have one more load of laundry to do, and I think I will be going to the gym if all works out vehicle wise. I also may play around with Photoshop some more editing pictures from the wedding. Here is one I did myself;

 

Ha there we go, Well I may be back again tonight, we will have to wait and see. 

Mrs. Dean Anderson (that’s me)!

Ok good morning to the people of blog land. I am now a married woman and happy to say that my wedding day was awesome! I couldn’t have asked for a better day. I danced my feet off and am still sore from it, but oh well!!!

And now that I am married and my “new” life is starting I will be trying to blog more often, and get better at it. And also I am going to lose this weight and be healthy!!!

I got on the scale this morning and to my surprise I was below 180! Ok so not by much, 179.5, but still i was surprised to see it. So I am now onto sparkpeople and my goal for now is to be 160 by March when we go away for our hunnymoon!

And now for some pictures! I have started using Windows Live Writer because I didn’t like the way Blogger was inserting pictures. I found it too hard to do. And while I still need to work on this it’s pretty cool, and seems alot easier. 

 

 

 

And there we have it some awesome pictures taken by awesome people. Check out Lynn for some other pictures she has been editing for me.

So that will wrap up for now as this has taken some time, but I will be back with my eats this evening!!

Last post as a single woman

Haha, So its Thursday, two freaking days away and I will be married. I have been busy but also enjoying my vacation. Today is jammed ful of errands and getting money and dropping stuff off and those type of things but it is sunny out (although a bit cold) and I am excited.

Dean has been at school all week, and I must say I enjoy my mornings alone, at first I didn't and it felt really odd, but now I like just puttering around in my PJ's for a bit and then get up and get going. Dean is a wake up shower and get dressed kinda man and then I feel like I should be dressed (I shower at night usually). So this pace is nice, espically for vacation.

So Like I said today is busy running errands, and tommorow is my rehersal dinner and a few more errands and then Saturday is the big day!!!! I am so excited and can't wait for it all to be over and settled down so I can start kicking my butt skinny!!!

The count down is on....

OK good morning bloggers, its a cool chilly morning here on the Eastern Shore and I am so proud to say that my husband to be has his first day of school today! He waited to go back until he knew what he wanted and now that he does he is hitting it full force. I know that he was nervous this morning, but I know he will kick ass!

On my end of things I am on vacation and still will end up going into work today. I have some errands to run that way today and we are having a baby shower for on of the girls. She has been through a lot and also this way I can check up on my residents... lol.

I also plan to send off a lot of e-mails to confirm all my wedding plans with people and get the final payments arranged. My parents who I love dearly, came down with a cheque last night which will cover most of it, which is on top of what they have already paid. It means so much to me that they would do this.

And I will leave you all with a picture of my proposal scrabble board...

5 Days left as a single woman....

So the wedding is very close now, in like less than a week! I had a busy week at work last week and had my final dress fitting, also got groceries and shopped a bit. This weekend was my baccalaureate party and it was a blast. I am glad to say that I am feeling better now, although this morning I was not well at all. I slept most of the day and while there were pics taken they weren't on my camera. I got a spa day too and had a facial and manicure and pedicure and loved every minute of that. I am all glamed up now and ready to get married!

This week will be busy. My dad is in from Ont. and with the wedding stuff to do I will be kept busy. I need to take my dress to get steamed, and have to pick it back up. And just work all the last minute details out. But I am glad to say it is all coming together!!!!

2 weeks untill the big day!!!

OK so first off, it's 2 weeks until my wedding!!!!!! Super excited about that, and it is all coming together as well. We have got almost everything done, the last step, and the painful one, is paying for it all! But we will make due!

Scale wise I am about the same, which is fine I guess. I hate the fact that I wasn't able to loose anything for the wedding but I am excited to have the goal to do it once all this craziness is over with. I am thinking of putting together a post with some pictures of all my different weights. That's if I can find any decent pics. I was looking last night and there are some, but not a whole lot.

Plans for the weekend? Well not much for me I don't think. Dean's Bachelor party is tonight and I think I will be chilling at a friends waiting for them to be done, and today I just wanna tidy up a bit, maybe start a cross-stitch. I have been wanting to get back into them for a bit now, just can't seem to find the time. Tomorrow I may have to go into work, but if I don't it will still just be a relaxing day at home. Maybe do some laundry with are insanely slow washer!

Well that is about it for me, the count down is on and I will be busy the next few weeks, but it is exciting all the same!!!

Hurricain Sunday!

Good afternoon everyone, hope you are all enjoying the weather more than me! We are sitting in a hurricain and our basement is flooding some, the power is out for alot of people and the rain just dosn't want to stop.

That being said I am in my comfy's reading and watching TV relaxing. We had a late night last night at friends and are a little sleepy today. That being said we don't like lazing around and are getting board. But thats ok!

My weigh in this week wasn`t what I wanted to see, but it`s all my own fault, and while I am not happy with it I will survive.

I want to mention congrats to Lynn Who is down 100 lbs! I am so proud and she is a huge inspiration, now if she could only lend me her motivation for a while!

Well that is it for now, just sitting through the storm!

Back down in the valley

Well I am not sure if it's the heat, or the 5 day work week, or just my eating habits this week but I am back down low in the valley of self pity!

I feel gross, I feel like I have no energy, I am so sleepy I can't even watch a TV show past 730! I want to do something exciting and fun this weekend but don't want to at all because I feel so gross!

I know that I can loose weight I know I can try to do better and loose weight and be healthy but for some reason I can't do it. It sux! I am so mad at myself and so upset I don't even know what to do.

Well I guess I can say I ranted, and I feel well not better but it's out there. And maybe I can feel better tomorrow. And maybe I will feel better next week.

A long hot day...

Well when I got to work today with the humidex inside it was 36, when I left it was 40... Yea hot. It's like a sauna only you can't get out. So needless to say it was gross. And today seemed to drag on forever. It was long and hot and gross. So now I am home and just want to lay in bed and stay cool. My only saving grace is that our bedroom is in the basement so it is nice and cool. So we may go to the beach after supper and get some icecream and then head back home and early to bed.

I love the nice weather but is sux to work in!!

A busy weekend

OK So this was my first real weekend off after my first 5 day work week!!!

And we were busy! Yesterday we headed into town to pick up some things and run some errands. Then we headed to a fundraiser for the Relay for Life, and then met up with some old friends and hit the beach. We left the house around 930, and other than a quick stop to change and drop off out buys from the city we didn't get home till about 830.

We (well hunny) wanted to stay up late, and Ive been wanting to watch the DaVinci Code again since I read the book. And we had a few drinks, while by the first one I was falling asleep and I made it about 3/4's of the way thru the second before Dean said we could go to sleep, which was about 1030!

But I was up by 730 and we have been pretty busy today and havn't stopped. I had some breakfast and we went out so Dean could practice backing up, as he takes his drivers test this week (good luck hun!). Then it was back home where I went through my clothes and changed the bed, and we worked on our song list for the wedding reception. Dean is now washing the car and I am e-mailing some ppl and working on wedding stuff (lists and whatnot)

I am hoping to go to the Beach tonight but we will see.

Need to find the motivation....

Ok so the last few days I have been totally not paying attention to what I eat. And that is a lie because I know what I am eating and how unhealthy it is for me but I can't seem to care really. But I think I know why. I am getting married in less than a month and I lost 3 lbs last week. Part of that is really good, but then I thought that if I loose too much my dress won't fit! So that is part of it. The rest of it is just there is so much going on right now that I can't get organized. I am in my new job and that is a bit stressful, and working 5 days a week now is a bit stressful too.

So here is my new commitment. I am not going to track my food until after the wedding. I am still going to weigh in once a week. And my new goal is to be in the 160's (preferably lower) by March 1st. We are going away down south then for our honeymoon and I want to look good. So that is it, I will still blog but this is about maintenance for the month and then I will get back to it.

I hope to get to the gym still but that is for stress relief not nessacarly weight loss.

So that is it, my thoughts in my head make sense!

ok, hump day!

So today is hump day! On my first full week of work, and I am already exhuasted. But I will prevail. Not much to say, my eating has sucked, and while i'm not ok with that It is all my fault. But I am going to deal with it, wow this is going to turn into a blab session which dosn't make sense, so I will leave it at that and get my thoughts together.

Just wanted to share

Hey everybody, I just wanted to share this song with you; one of my staff wrote it and it is him singing it. We work on a special care floor, so people who are confused and have dementia.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQdN9mvXiTo

Thanks guys

water???

Good Evening everyone,

Well we still have no running water, but the plummer has been here for the day and is pretty sure we will have water by the time we go to bed. My eats today were horrible and I am going to leave it at that.

My day at work was busy and I am very sleepy. And the JP is comming over to talk about the ceremony, and then I will be heading to bed and reading and then going to bed, work again in the morning!

Night bloggies

Wedding Shower fun

Good Morning bloggies, well after a lovely wedding shower yesterday and quite a few drinks of blueberry wine it was a good day. The festivities stared around 1 I picked Lynn and returned to my house where my throne was decorated....

So the fun began and I opend some gifts, which were mostly gift cards which made me happy! Dean also got a cookie jar out of the deal and I scored some other interesting stuff. So once the gift opening was done it was time for my crown........

Then some food....

What I didn't show was the plate of sweets I ate, or the numerous glasses of wine I drank....

All in all it was a good day, Now I am off to my Aunts becuase we have no running water here and need to get it fixed, but I need to be clean and have clean clothes for work! Have a good sunday bloggies!

Early Satuday morning

Ok good morning everyone, Rarely do I blog this early but I guess waking up more than 3 days in a row at an ungodly hour means that it works on the weekend too. Was up at 6 but didn't crawl out of bed until about now, 730 or so, I just read my book. I am ready the first Harry Potter book which is easy to read which is what I wanted.

Today is my wedding shower, and I am being kicked out until about 1 so mom can decorate and things, which I don't mind, I will just take Dean down to a friends.

I weighed in today, which I think I will make my new weigh in day and I was down 3 lbs! I am super happy with that. I am going to try to eat good today even though I know there will be alot of good stuff to eat, but I did pick up a huge fruit and veggie tray so I will try to stick to that.

Other than that not much to say, relaxed last night and plans for tomorrow depend on the weather!

Crazy day!

OMG!!! That about says how my day was.... Insane. I was so busy I didn't even get a lunch break. And on top of that who knew a cinnamon bun was like 400 calories???? I didn't, I was thinking like 250 but no 420 freaking calories...





However the not eating lunch made up for it I guess, but if I had of ate lunch I would have been up for going to the gym.





And it was so hot at work if I don't loose weight from sweating so much I will be shocked!





Other than the fact that the day was busy it was a good day, we had pasta for supper and I didn't go over my calorie's!

And to close a pic of my kitty making love to my shoes, he likes my shoes....

A better day

Well today was a better day I am feeling better mostly. Still don't feel confident with the wedding plans but I am ok with that.

Work was a good day, busy but good.

Well I wanna relax the rest of the night so I will chill now, have a good night!

Wedding Stress!!!!!

Ok so I will start with the good things that happened today....

No, good things did happen. I started my clinical leader position today and was happy to learn that things up on 5C weren't quite as bad as they appeared. Now tomorrow is Doctor day so we shall see how that goes...

And another good thing, we went to the gym, and Dean made a lovely supper of hamburgers and baked potato.

And that is where the good stops and the bad begins. As I couldn't enjoy my supper because I was so mad over my wedding and things are going crazy on that front. So it's bad enough Deans grandparents couldn't come (well won't come but anyway), but I now have to deal with my divorced grandparents acting like they are 12. My grandmother will come to the ceremony but not the reception because, and I quote; "I don't know what your (grand)father will do". Now she said this to my mom a few days ago and it pissed her off too. The RSVP I got was that she was coming to the ceremony (only).................

Like come on these people are in their 70's and apparently can't be civil for their granddaughters wedding??? So I was upset about that plus the fact that we are not getting the responses through RSVP that we need to even have the type of meal we want (buffet). I was so mad I could, oh wait, did cry!

Well that was mostly my day, the rest was sitting contemplating what to do about the reception, and if I will even speak to my grandmother again.

Hope tomorrow is better!

A supper time expierment

Well I don't normally blog twice in one day but we had an expierment at supper and I took pics!So my eats today were wonderful, I will be at 1238 calories once i have my jello and cool whip. We didn't get to the gym or a movie, just relaxed at home, which was nice. So here is the goods, tell me what did I have for supper??

And a close up...

Ok so it looks like mashed potatoes right?? Well it's not, its mashed Cauliflower. Which even though it looked like mashed potatoes sad to say its not near as good. And next time I will just stick to boiled cauliflower. It was bland and watery. Now we may substitute some for some potatoes next time to make it less calories.

So it wasn't the best but I can see a change in mashed potatoes maybe. Have a good evening.

Back to rain...

So yesterday was another awesome day. I didn't get in as much sun as I wanted because it was so hot but that also means I didn't burn!

Dean mowed the whole lawn which probably took him about 2 hours, we had a good trip to the grocery store, only picking up what was on the list. And I got all the laundry done except for a small load of towels!

And my eats were right on. And Supper was an awesome salad with chicken skewers on them! Some times I wished I took pics of some of my food like some other Halibloggers because that salad looked awesome, maybe I will start.

The evening was spent sipping a few glasses of wine and watching a movie, that we again didn't finish, and then we slept in until 9:00!

Today is rainy and gross, we might go into a movie and if we do I am gonna see about going to the gym. Supper is already planned and will be fairly low cal, and I start my new position tomorrow... eeeekkkk!

Needless to say it will be early to bed for me!

Good day yesterday... looks better today

So the past few days have been good. Eating wise not so much but activity wise good.

Friday we went and hunny had a driving lesson and I went for my dress fitting. Then we went to the Mongoli grill with friends and headed back to there place for some planning about our honeymoon. We are going down south and figure they should come, the more the merrier right?

Yesterday I worked out at their place before we left... oh how I would love to have a treadmill in my home... And we headed into the city because the boys had to get sized for tux's. I must admit I was not fond of the woman helping us at all...and I may make a compliant against her. She was rude and bossy and rushed us in and out.
Afterwords we went for lunch at Boston Pizza, wasn't too impressed with my lunch but didn't eat it all and will probably finish it today.

Then we headed to the VV Boutique (aka Value Village), and I got a new top a pair of pants and some books. Then we headed home and made pizza for supper, was very good, and then went down to the beach for a walk in the sunset... which was very nice and the water was cold but my feet got used to it... or did they go numb?

When we got home we tried to watch a movie but I fell asleep so we just went to bed.

Today I woke up and it was sunny! None of this cloud that has to burn off first, it was actually sunny! So today I plan on laying on the deck and getting a tan... but first we have to clean up and go get some groceries ... blah...

Hello from the new Laptop!

Hey there people in blog land! I am checking in from the new laptop. There was a little incident last night which ended in my old one breaking. Thankfully it didn't blow up so I didn't loose my pictures and stuff, but it will take a few days to get up and running again.

Today was my last day on my floor and it was a good day to end. I start on my new floor Tuesday after a 4 day weekend!

Tomorrow we are heading in for my dress fitting and supper with friends. I am excited and can't wait for the whole weekend.

Food wise I didn't do very well today but I am ok with that. I didn't track everything and that is about the only thing I am upset about. But overall we went to the gym so I am ok with the day!

Back to work

Alright so yesterday was a good day, I got to the gym, I ate within my calories and it was sunny and hot.

Today although sunny and hot I was at work so boo to that. It gets to 36 degrees most sunny days where I work with no air conditioning. Work was good though and I may have splurged on an Ice Capp, but it was so hot! And I only have tommrow on my floor and then I start a new position I am very excited about.

Other than that not much to say, gonna head to the beach I think after supper for a nice walk and maybe some ice cream... we will see what the calories say after supper!

All Party'd out!

Well I busted my calorie's for yesterday. No point even to cry about it. I did it, I tracked it as accuratly as I could, I move on....

But I had an awsome day! It started with heading into town with mom to try on the wedding dress and bring it home! I didn't remember it completly and I love it! Will need some alteations but not too many. I am super excited.

Then we met up with My MoH and her daughter, on of my bridesmaids and went to Micheals for flowers... $200 later we left to go and bring them back to put it all together. And that's when McDonalds happened. And I learned my lesson, No more Number 2's for me.

So we came home and started drinking, it was vodka and crystal light for me. And my MoH made some awsome flowers... I will post pics soon.... So from about 5 till 1230 we got 5 bouqets done and 3 boutneirs. So we only have 7 left to go and they shouldn't take that long. We didn't hit the bed untill 2:00 and I am a little slow going today but loved every moment of yesterday and the wedding talk!

In all I went over what I had planned by about 900 cals, which was the Micky D's and a little extra vodka I didn't need. But it was worth it and we are headed to the gym today to burn some calories!!!

The Weigh In!

Ok so Last week I was really upset with my weigh in (184lbs), But I redeemed myself and this week weigh 180! Still not near where I want and I can't seem to really get into the 170's but it's a loss and that I will handle. And today I am picking up my wedding dress! yay!. It isn't altered yet and I need to look into how long it takes so I can know where I need to be weight wise and kinda stay there untill after the wedding. I am hoping it won't need to much altering.

And also since today is weigh in day and I lost I will allow myself a bit more to eat. Specily since my maid of honor is coming over for drinks and flower making!

Here we go again.

Here I go again.

I had a little break down and am now commited to doing this. I realize that my wedding is very close now. And I also relize that this is the time, and to stop waiting for somthing to click. So the past few days I have ate about 1200 calories, and today while I was a bit over I still stayed around 1500. We have gone to the gym more and I will be working towards being more active. So tommow I weight in with hopes of being down!

A great day!!!!!

What a day!!!!

We started the day with very good breakfast burritos. With egg and tomato, mushroom, some cheese and salsa. It was awesome. I then had a shower and we relaxed a bit and then went to Clam Harbour Beach.
It wasn't sunny but wasn't cold and rainy. We walked the length of the beach and back, and then did these;

Now while I still plan on going to the park, I think this counts towards some of my weekly challenge for the 15 week Challenge!!!!

We went to a fish shack for lunch, and I was very disappointed. I wanted a clubhouse and fries, thinking they would at least have that. But they honestly had nothing healthy there. Everything was deep-fried. I ended up with fish and chips which I enjoyed, but the calories were not pretty.

I got home and was told to call work... and I got the new position I was trying for!!!! It wasn't on the unit I wanted but the one I got is a good one with good staff. So I think everything will work out.

So I napped and then we went to the NSLC for some celebration wine!!!!

So today I am not counting the rest of my calories, but we had a relatively good supper and I won't be snacking too much, just the wine, maybe some chips, lol.

Tomorrow we are off to town and to get our passports, also going to go to point pleasant, and I may even do Amy's workout Wednesday challenge in the park, although I am not looking forward to arm exercises.

What a day!

I had a crazy day and I still stayed within my calories!!!!

So today was crazy! I started off right with some yogurt and a banana for breakfast, I knew lunch was provided at a meeting but wasn't sure what it was so I wanted to go light. I also had some tziki and pita for a snack.

I had the second part of my interview process today and got totally overwhelmed and was very nervous. But in the end I think I did OK and will get the job. The rest of my normal day was spent in a meeting as I am precepting a nursing student. Lunch was provided but it was relatively healthy, which doesn't normally happen. It was vegetable lasagna and salad. I was very impressed that I even liked the lasagna.

I stayed extra at work today so made some extra cash. But along with staying late comes a free supper, which at our little cafe is normally not good food. I splurged and has some french fries and a chicken club wrap, but only half as my hunny came to eat supper with me.

So I feel I did good, and working a bit longer helped burn off some calories too!

I am off for the next 2 days and hope to get to the gym and also to the park to do some exercise and full-fill Amy's challenge for this week.

Well off to relax and DE-stress!!!

Good Days ahead

Well that is it, I think I have mastered this eating trick and have finally stopped giving up. I did well yesterday and even better today. I am eating healthy and I am happy. Now I have to work on the exercise part, which thanks to Amy's 15 week challenge I will get some of it done. Her challenge this week is to workout in the park, so Wednesday or Thursday when I am off I plan to drag Dean to a park and we will do something active, I am thinking Frisbee or a jog, or both, or maybe just catch. I know it doesn't sound like much but anything is a step up for me.

So my calories have been good and I have been feeling better. We have a camping trip coming up and I am excited for that, although nervous that it will go badly on the eating wise. But I feel I will be active enough to counteract it.

Oh and my weight in was only down .5, but better than up!

Back from planet insane!

OK so I was a little busy this past week with an interview for a new position, that being said I did track a few days but some where just really bad. But it's all behind me know whatever the out come and will focus on my weight.

That being said I signed up for Amy's 15 Week Challenge, which can be found at; http://amysquesttoskinny.blogspot.com.



Now I didn't do this weeks challenges. One was to re-create a recipe to make it more healthy. Now this would have been hard anyway since I don't do most of the cooking I just omit food from my plate. The other challenge was a workout Wednesday, which for me I was working and then had to study for my interview which was more important. But next week I am all the ball and will complete everything. I was down a pound this week as well which while I wish it was more its one a week, for 15 weeks would put me 15 pounds lighter. which would put me in the 160's!. So I am excited for a new week!.

working the weekend

So I missed yesterday, and lets face it, I sucked, I went over my calorie limit and while it's all tracked I am upset about it.

Today was better, I am close to my limit but not over. And it was all because of a gift. One of my residents bought me a timmies hot choclate, and in the large size. which was like 300+ cals! who knew!

But my day was full of busy work and over all was good. I didn't have anything exciting to eat other than my hot choclate and the day was pretty boring. So tommrow should be more excitng. But I need to plan supper and that could be interesting. Also I plan to go to the gym, so hopefully I will get there!

Welcomed Wensday

Well today was good, and bad. To start with the good we went to see what we are pre-approved for a mortgage and come to find out it is better than we thought. Probably won't start looking right away but it's nice to know we have the option. So that was the good part.

The bad is that I am still sick, I feel like crap. My throat is very sore and I am a little stuffed up. I napped for about an hour and a half and I am so sleepy now! I just hope that I can feel better by work for the weekend!

So needless to say I didn't get much activity in. Just a few flights of stairs, lol. But I was in my calorie range so I am happy about that. I had oatmeal for breakfast, with some added brown sugar so I would keep my appetite up. For lunch I had tomato soup with some crackers. Supper was very yummy, I had mashed potatoes and broccoli and chicken Parmesan. It was very good, Dean did an awsome job. And to top it all off I had some ice cream!

So that was my day, I am on a course tomorrow so don't have to be into work as early. Get off later though. And it will be challenging because lunch is provided and it may not be calorie friendly. But I will try my best. And I will get a little walk in so that will help!

Back to work

Well I was glad to be back to work, but the drama is insane! I am up for a new position which I am excited about nervous though...

Today was a fairly good day, until this evening when my throat was killing me, it is still sore but I think I know why now. Huge allergy attack! I don't know what has triggered it though.

So now for some pics from Winnipeg...And there we go, my first pics on my blog.

So for eats today I stayed within my calories, although not much to spare for snacks tonight.

I had breakfast nice and early instead of eating on the run. I had a muffin and banana, at work I had some yogurt and all bran buds and lunch was leftovers from last night. I also snuck in a handful of Doritos, but felt bad afterword. Then supper was pasta and Dean made a small Cesar to go with, it was very yummy. And to top it off I had some hot chocolate. I might sneak in some sweet and spicy mix but not sure yet.

And I went to the gym! I was very happy to go to the gym, it had been a while. I only did some on the treadmill but it was good to be back. Tommorw we might go and get Dean joined up, not sure yet.

So off to relax and watch some telly!

Home!

Well I am home, and glad to be. The trip was good, but a little long. So today was also a new start. We picked up grocheries and got healthy stuff. I am also going to track my calories again and start going to the gym again. Dean will even start going too. I am also looking at job options as alot is going on at work right now. My first day back is tommorw and I am excited to get back into a routien. Even though this week is busy and going to be long once the weekend hits.

On another note my doggy had sx on her toe and is doing good now, she did have a infection though. And my kitty missed me like crazy. All he did all night was purr!

Today I had a good breakfast and Dean made a good pannini sandwich for lunch, I'm still a bit hungry though so may sneak upstairs for some crackers. Supper is suppose to be Turkey tetrazini and will probably be a bit pricy in the calories but it will be good. After supper I hope to get out for a walk but the rain may dampen that idea, we shall see.

In Manitoba

So I am in Winnipeg, visiting the inlaws. I can say I had fun. We have done alot, but now it's getting close to go home. I am home sick and miss my bed, and my kitty and my family. So what have I done, well we went to the forks which is a big market park thing. And we went to the red river ex, which was fun, and I didn't do anything upsidedown, and we have done a few other things... oh the zoo that was fun!!! anyway to go now and relax on vacation!

Early Start to my Vacation

So Dean was off sick yesterday and still wasn't feeling good today, so we both played hooky and i got to start my vacation early! We leave on Thursday and while I am scared to be getting on the plane I am excited to be going. We hopefully will have a wonderful time. But when I get back I will dedicate myself to losing 20 lbs by the time of the wedding. That is 3 months away and that is totally possible. I have to go for a dress fitting soon so then I will know what area's I really need to work on... Like my arms and back! Well Wish me luck and hope everyone has a good time while I am away!

I did it!

So I completed the Relay for life! It rained a little and we are all sleepy but we had a good time. Our team rased over 2000 dollars, which was good and I will definitly do it again next year. Our set up was of a boxing ring and i think it looked very good. So now just to relax and remember why we did it. And sleep lots!

Thoughts

So I am sitting here, Thinking, drinking my 1L cooler and relizing I am doing the Relay for Life tommrow and why I am doing it. I am doing it for a few reasons, and in reality probably more than I know. I am doing it for my grandfather... He is pallitive care and has a rare type of skin cancer... Has been all the way to Hamilton Ont for treatment with no real success. I am doing it for one of the residents I wored with who died of bowel cancer very suddenly and had no real warning. I am doing it for Dean's dad who had cancer as well as my other grandfathers side of the family... almost all of which are gone due to cancer. While we have come so far we still have so far to go and this is why I am doing this. I may not have raised alot the money but I am supporting the cause. I am happy to be healthy and able to do this for those who can't. http://convio.cancer.ca/site/TR/RelayForLife/RFL_NS_EasternShore_?px=2045501&pg=personal&fr_id=3512&fl=en_CA&s_tafId=43359

Its been a while

Its been a while since I blogged, I've had alot going on with my life. My Grandfather is sick and not so well and I have been training a new nurse at work. I have been very stressed out and probably not coping the best I could. But I started yesterday with eating better, I am not going to say good I am just going to eat when hungry and stop when full. I have had so ups and downs lately and am now getting excited for our trip to winnipeg that is comming up. Also we are doing the relay for life and I am getting excited for that. Please support us at http://convio.cancer.ca/site/TR/RelayForLife/RFL_NS_EasternShore_?px=2045501&pg=personal&fr_id=3512&fl=en_CA&s_tafId=43359

I ran around my 1K loop yesterday and am thinking very hard of doing it again this eveing, But other than that i what to relax and enjoy my day off before I go back for 2 more day.

A nice walk with my dog.

So yesterday was good and today has been ok. I am kinda in a bad mood, not really sure why, but I still got my activity in. I went for a walk with my dog and my music. I enjoyed it but am worn out now. I think alot of it is the weather because it's been grey and gross since about thursday i think. But they are calling for sun now right through the rest of the week. Which is good becuase we have a BBQ comming up on Saturday for a fundriaser. Mom comes home today from visiting my father and I am hoping some good news will come with her. Other than that I finished my book and am starting a new one, don't know how I will feel about it, but we will see. I'm back to work tommrow and hopeing its a good couple days at work, ugh I don't wanna go!!!!

I think I'm going crazy

Ok so today has been a good day. We slept in till about 730, then I got up and did some strenght and flexibility training for about 20 mins. Then Dean made awsome omletts with salimi, spinach and cheese in them. We had some cantalope aswell and then headed grochery shopping. I must say I am having a very hard time finding good produce at any grochery store and am really thinking about starting to go to fruit stands or something. Any way we had some lunch out and got home. Put all the goodies away and read some of my book. Its a very intersting book a friend lent me about the myan 2012 doomsday propechy. Then and here's where I am crazy; I went for a run... in the rain. Yea insane is the right word. I found out that around my loop is about 1K and thought that would be an excellent starting point. So I ran it... well most of it, I took 3 very little walking breaks that were all hills, but other then that I did it. And I feel good doing it. So now I have gotten my exersize in for the day and am wondering what to do for the rest of the day. Its rainy and crappy so I am thinking of just curling up with my book again and reading for a bit. Mom comes home tommrow and I plan on doing some biking i think. We shall see!

Re-motivated

Ok so today I did my first 5K! I didn't run all of it but I did run some, and I ran over the finish line! I was not into it yesterday when we went to pick up our stuff, but now after doing it I am excited to be healthy and do better next year. I am not going to focus on food. I know that what I eat is not the problem. The problem is that I do not do enough activity, and that is going to change. I pledge to myself that today and every day on I will do at least 30 mins of activity, weather its a walk or some stregth training at home doing push ups or squats, I will do it. I will also try on most days that I am not working to get an hour in, even if it's in 2 30 min sets. I will be healthy for this and even if I do not hit goal wt I will feel better about myself.

100% nice out

Ok so activity has been lacking today, however it is sunny and warm and i relaxed, also didn't do so well yesterday but hey it's the weekend and i still feel good about myself which is the important part in the long run, Dean is out there washing the car, and i got alot of sun so am indoors for now cooling off, I have a feeling my chest is burnt. I also was in shorts which is a change becuase i am usually to uncomfortable in them. So I think friends are comming for a BBQ and to chill which should be fun. Tommorw we have a bike ride planned and i am excited about that. I am going to aim for 6K. I love biking so much better than running. I would however like to go for a walk maybe this eveing just to get some activity in, we will see what the night brings!

feeling better, wedding stress is starting though

Well I said we bought bikes and I am way more a biker then I am a runner. We went for a nice 5K ride and it was nice, and I can say I had fun. Unlike running where I didn't have fun. I can say I am getting more energy back, I have started eating healthy again and am excited to do so, I am also trying to exersize more often, so hopefully it will all work out well.

As for the wedding, well i am starting to feel some anxiety which is to be excpected i guess, but it's still stressful, we are printing out our invites today and that was a bit stressfull, with them not working properly and what not. But its getting done. My Wedding dress is in and that is very exciting, so now i just need to go try it on and see how it fits, and then work my way into making it look better!

Low Iron and B12????

Ok so about a month ago I went to the Doctor, got some bloodwork done and today finally had my follow up appointment with her. Come to fine out my Iron is about 50% less then it should be and my B12 is about 7 pts lower then it should be. So now I have to got on supplements to increase them. So I will go on supplements for now but am going to track my food again and make a huge effort to increase my intake of these vitamins.

Also I will track my food again. We have moved and I haven't tracked a thing in like probably 2 months. It may be rough but I need to do this again and lose this weight. I have a wedding coming up and am so not impressed with my weight loss, or weight maintenance is more like it.

Me and Dean bought some bikes and are looking forward to doing some biking across our area. My only fear is that my knees don't bother me too much, but I definitely think this will be better than the running since that isn't working at all.

So here is luck to me about all this new crap.