The good The bad and The Headache

Well I will start with The Headache, which is now mostly gone, but I had all day. It is very hard to work in a loud environment when you have a pounding headache. But all in all my day was a good day!

On to the good; 2 more Sleeps till my first WW meeting!!! I am getting very excited for this. I have been thinking on how to divy up my POINTS and thinking of what else to eat other than salads.

How do other split up their POINTS through their day??

The other good is that tomorrow is Friday and I can’t wait for this work week to be done!

On to the bad; which isn’t so bad But What I am about to show you can be scary! Here is a time line of me and my weight loss/gain journey to date.

This is me in grade 10, 2001. I was maybe 130 pounds and about a size 8.

 

This is me my 2nd year of University – 2005 – I am probably in the 170’s and this is when I starts WW online.

 

This is me my last year of university – 2007 – This is when I felt the best I was in the 160’s. Unfortunately I didn’t lose the weight because of WW I lost if because of a heartbreak.

These are of my last few months before I graduated – I felt good in my body but the weight was creaping back on, I would say the 170’s

 

These are when I met Dean and after graduation – In the 180’s and I started thinking about losing wt again – I started feeling uncomfortable and wanting to look better and more professional.

 

 

A few highligts over the past years weight loss journey. My first 5K – which I didn’t run all of but I wasn’t last place. My wedding which was the prefect day and I wouldn’t change any of it. And my Honeymoon weekend.

And Last is Me Today Weighing in at 185 lbs – I only home my scale is close to the one at the Meeting on Saturday or I could be in for a big surprise:

Well that is it. Now everyone knows my journey – which so far has really only been going up in pounds not down. I hope to have pictures at 1 month, 2 months and 10 weeks since I plan to stay in WW for at least that long; and Lose hopefully 15 lbs!

Not feeling it

Evening everyone, I am really not feeling like blogging to night so it will be short and sweet.

I didn’t do too bad on my eats today, and I feel good about that.

I had my shots today (both H1N1 and Seasonal Influenza) and I feel like that may be why I am just not in a great mood. My arms both hurt and I am very sleepy.

Last night we went to bed at 730, which is pretty pathetic…

The only thing I am excited about is WW in 3 sleeps! I am just hoping I can do it this time around and reach goal. I have been looking into it and I don’t think anything under 150 is reasonable as a goal for me, so I may need to go to the Dr. to get a note.

But my lunch is made, and I am ready for the next day, hopefully my arms won’t be too sore.

SOOOOOO Excited!!

Gah I am so excited! I am now able to join WW meetings! I was bummed out about it and asked Mom if she would pay for a birthday gift (which isn’t until December) and she said she would!!I am super excited and pumped for this. It seems like alot of peeps in blog land are re-committing to WW and I can only hope that this will be a good thing!

On to today, it was a busy day and I had originally thought that I was going to have a healthy salad for lunch but for some reason I thought French fries would be a nice treat!! Well I have now learned that fast food is bad food. After eating my fries and gravy I felt like crap, I got irritable and cranky. And I just know it is from the French fries. So I vow now to not eat junk, because I know that I will feel like crap afterwards.

Supper was amazing though; Squash and apple, curry maple soup. Yum Yum!

Dean did a good job today!!

So now I am spending the evening, not feeling well with a headache, and we will be in bed early I am sure. With my kitty cat!

WW in 4 sleeps!!

Monday Moves

Well today just flew right by, it’s not almost 8 and I am relaxed and ready to start again!!

On the meal plan for today was; Cereal, Salad (with pom), Chicken, Mashed potato, String Beans

Breakfast was Cereal and I even added some grapes in there for extra power!

Lunch was a Salad with spinach, cucumber, tomato and mushroom with Pomegranates on it. I also had left over pot pie from last night! The salad which I was excited about turned out to be just ok.

Supper was very tasty tonight. Dean baked chicken breasts with orange and Thyme, turned out very tasty! He also made mashed potatoes with egg instead of milk, and while i’m not sure if it was healthier it was tasty.

So there you have it, I also had some yogurt and Clementine's today, and a piece of cheesecake from leftover Pinch of Love goodies.

Other than that I am still on the fence about alot and thinking alot. I have decided to give this week a try with the meal plan, and maybe start tracking again next week, we will see!!

Undecided…

Good evening bloggers, hope everyone had a safe fun Halloween. I did. We went over to watch scary movies and we did just that, well Blair witch project wasn’t that scary, but Strangers was, even for the second time.

My meal plan has been followed. Yesterday for breakfast I had a English muffin with egg and some spinach and cheese, was pretty tasty. Then for lunch I has some cookies and a spoon of peanut butter, ok not the best but tasted good! Supper was spaghetti and was very tasty even though there were onions and red peppers, which I am not fond of.

Today was a day spent relaxing mostly, and thinking. Breakfast was eggs and toast, lunch was Kraft dinner, and I kept thinking how I used to eat a whole box! Can’t even eat a whole little pre-portioned one now! Dean made a tasty Turkey pot pie, which i was going to get a picture of but totally forgot! And now I am all showered and my lunch is made for tomorrow!

Now for the nitty gritty part for me. We have been faced with some choices lately and I am so not sure what to do. First we have been given an option of moving to a “better” location, and I say better for several reasons, but for me moving is a whole up-roar of stress and anxiety because I hate changing routine and hate the unknown. Which is what it all ends up being in the end.

The other choice is that I have been invited to go to Weight Watchers meetings with friends. I did weight watchers online for a bit with success, but now I am back up to the same weight I was at. The problem for me isn’t that I don’t want to go, because I would totally give it a try, but the issue is it’s soooo damn expensive. I had hinted to my mother about wanting to go and maybe it would be a good early birthday gift, but she don't want to hear it, she doesn't seen me succeeding or anything like that.

So if I am not going to go to WW then my other thought is should I track my calories on Sparkpeople. But then my fear is that I hated tracking my calories. I always got anxiety and stress when I was tracking my supper as I was always stressed out that I wasn’t able to have a evening snack.

Gah I don’t know, if anyone has any ideas it would be a great help, for now I am just going to follow my meal plan and see what happens for now.

Friday Night Delight

Good Evening blogger land. Hope everyone is prepared for a safe, fun Halloween Weekend. I know I am.

So today was a fairly good day!

Just to remind people here is what I had planned to eat; Cereal, Catered Lunch and Fish, Rice, Broccoli. And I am happy to stay I stuck with it fairly well. As stated breakfast was cereal, corn pops to be exact. Probably not the healthiest choice, but it was what we have right now.

Then I went to work for a bit before heading to a Job Fair to help get some more staff!! There we had a catered lunch, and I had a coffee and chocolate chip muffin around 10, and they didn’t have alot of stuff to offer, they did have some fruit but it looked over ripe and a little off. Then lunch came around and I had some mushrooms and a nice squash soup, it was really good! I also had one cookie, which was also fantastic.

After the job fair we went grocery shopping and we always buy a piece of fudge from Dave’s, so I had a nice piece of choclate peanut butter fudge!!! Its not pumpkin spice like everyone has been raving about but it will do!

Supper was awesome, and although we don’t consider Shark Steak fish, it is sea food so it counts. We had that with rice and broccoli and it was totally enjoyable. Now I am sitting relaxing with a drink and enjoying the evening, eagerly awaiting my “friday night delight” on WWE SmackDown; John Morrison;

those abs!

This weekend I have my Papa’s interment, and then we are hanging out watching scary movies!! Hope I don’t get too scared!!

I’ll leave you with one last pic of me and my Papa, hope everyone has a safe weekend!!!

I’m going to do it!!!

What is it? Well it starts with a commitment to myself. And ends with following through. I have made a weeks worth of menu. Now they are rough and I might admit boring, but I am hoping that this is what I need to get a head. Will I track it… I haven't decided yet. But here is what it looks like;

Friday – Cereal, Catered Lunch and Fish, Rice, Broccoli

Saturday – Egg and Toast/English muffin, ???, Halloween Candy

Sunday – Halloween Candy, ???, Turkey Pot Pie

Monday – Cereal, Salad (with pom), and Chicken, Mashed potato, String Beans

Tuesday – Toast and grapes, Salad (with tuna), Squash and Maple Apple Curry soup

Wednesday – Cereal, Salad (with cheese) and Pork, Baked Potato, Carrots

Thursday – Oatmeal??, Salad (with pork??), and Chicken, Couscous, Squash

It is very basic but I am excited to have it all laid  out in front of me. I am especially excited for the Squash soup Dean will make and the salad with Pom. This is a huge step and I hope I can finally follow through.

 

Me in the 180’s, last time sucker's

Sill sick = time to think

Wow I am still sick, better, but still not well, So I stayed home today. But I will be back at work tomorrow, I can’t miss anymore time!!! The end of the month will kill me!!!

So with being home sick, but not sleepy at all today, I have had some time to think. I realized that this blog has turned away from a healthy lifestyle and to a whatever blog. Well actually I have turned into a whatever sort of person again, and I don’t like that. I was catching up on blogs today and I think Skinny Me Said it best. That in order to really life an active healthy lifestyle we need to be in routine and sacrifice alot to stay in that routine.

My problem is that I am not a fan of routine. I mean we have one, we go to work we come home we have supper lalala, but if something comes up or plans change, I go with it. If I was putting exercise in and something better came up I would opt out with no problems. I think I need to start looking at rewards for myself to be active, and healthy.

I also like that some of the other ladies are not weighing themselves for a while and just focusing on the habits not the results. While I am not sure if I am ready for that yet I need to find some motivation for me to do well.

So what does everyone thing, should I start tracking my food again?? How do other people plan their days out??

I live a fair distance from any sort of gym so for me I either need to do it right after work, which has never really lasted, or find other activates to do at home, and I hate walking as I live on a major road with not much nice things to look at. I have a planner, or 2 or 3, and I use my work calendar too, but I can’t seem to scheduled anything around my life outside of work!!! It is driving me nuts!!!

So if any one has any tips that would be awesome!

Feeling incredibly Ill

Ok so I went to work, and I did my job and thankfully (well not for Dean) Dean called and wanted to go home early because he is now sick again!

I have been taking cold medication, my puffer and Tylenol all day, and the only time I felt remotely well was once I had a nice shower. I have a fever of 100.7 which isn’t huge but for me with a usual normal of 96.7 it’s a big deal.

Me and Dean napped when we got home, and ate mom’s lacking supper of fried pork chops and potatoes and mixed veggies, not that if it was an amazing supper i would have  been able to taste it. So tonight we have basically sat around and mopped about feeling sick. I won’t be going to work tomorrow and i can only imagine how behind I will be, but I need to get better!!!

Hope everyone else is well and healthy!!

Sick Sunday

OMG I hate being sick!

I did have a good weekend though, couldn’t let that stop me! Yesterday we didn’t do a whole lot we headed over to Lynn and J’s and relaxed with them. The boys played some video games and me and Lynn just talked about stuff.

I forgot to mention that she was nice enough to come to my Papa’s funeral and I so appreciated it. Thank you!!!

Dean made an awesome supper. Sticky Lemon Chicken, from Gordon Ramsey's cookbook, Dean idolizes him and he really does have some good recipes, even though they sometimes need alot of ingredients. We shared a bottle of wine and watches a stand up comedy act. We had started to watch a movie but we all started falling asleep.

This morning I woke up sick, uck. We had alot of Laundry to do, which is mostly all done, and we went to get groceries. Dean made some yummy brownie muffins for the week, and he is making pasta for supper tonight! I am so excited, I just hope I can taste it through this cold!!

This week I will be heading back to work and I just know that I will be busy and have a crazy week. But as long as I feel better it will be good because I will get to be occupied.

Hope everyone has a good week!!!

The remembrance of a good man.

Ok, well after an exhausting week I am now glad to say that I think the worst is over. My Papa’s funeral was today and it was a very good one I must say.

I must say though, I am not feeling the fast food anymore, after eating it Tuesday and Wednesday and eating out yesterday and again today I want a home cooked meal.

The past few days have been very busy. Running to the funeral home and back, and running around town printing off pictures. And today amongst all the stress, driving out to Beaverbank and back and then back and forth again with my Aunt who is in a home out there.

Me and Dean did take advantage of out well dressed selves and went for supper at the Mongoli Grill tonight, and I enjoyed that. But this weekend will be spend doing Laundry and relaxing and taking care of me. I go back to work Monday and will be very busy with the end of my month things. 

 

This is my Papa, his parents, my Dad and Me!

In Memory or Lawrence Clark – Oct. 20/2009

Well yesterday was a sad day for our Clark Clan.

If anybody knows my Papa (grandfather) has been fighting skin cancer for a while. Back about 2 years ago he went up to Hamilton with little success, and it has been a downward slop from there. He was also Diabetic and developed diabetic neuropathy which lead to him recently losing one leg just below the knee.

We had been prepared for a family meeting tomorrow to look at placement options, knowing he was stubborn and wouldn’t want to go anywhere but home. However in the early morning he passed away. And he was comfortable.

So yesterday was spent letting people know and getting my father, his son, home from Ontario where is is working. It was a late night but over all a good day, I can’t say tears weren't shed but time spent with family also has to be quality good time, and it was that.

Today will be rough as well, we are going to the funeral home to make the arrangements. I am thankful that work has given me the rest of the week off and I can spend this time with my family and myself. We weren't close but we where family.

I am so mad to say that I don’t have any recent pictures and that I only have old ones, I have a few still to scan but haven't gotten there yet.

 

RIP Papa, you are in a better place now.

Not a very good blogger.

Well I must say that I am not a very good blogger. And I am not a very committed person to myself either.

Why is it that it is so hard for women to take care of themselves? I know what I should do, I know how to do it. But why everything and everyone that crosses my path seems to make an excuse for me.

Needless to day I didn’t get my reward, and I didn’t even really care. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?. So this week I don’t even know where I stand. I didn’t lose/gain any weight so that is good I guess, but I just am not motivated.

What do other people do to motivate them??? Can some one help me find some realistic goals to work towards??

Help!?

Ugh work…

Ugh work today… woke up before dawn, it was cold I was still sleepy, although glad to be woke up from my nightmare.

Work was long, wasn’t as busy as excepted but our residents are still confined to the floor. I had a little freak out at a staff but am ok now.

The evening will be resting and preparing to do it all again tomorrow.

For my goals;

• I didn’t eat that well today. I had cereal and milk for breakfast (no fruit there). I was going to have the pineapple but turns out it was bad. My morning snack was a few cookies and a muffin, followed by lunch that was pizza and cheese and crackers. Supper was hot turkey sandwiches, with peas. So there is one veggie… well guess I won’t be getting my make-up. Oh well keep going.
• I definitely ate white carbs today, with pizza and hot turkey sandwiches, the cracker where whole wheat though and they were multi-grain cheerio's!
• No exercise today, it’s rainy and cold and suppose to snow tonight!
• I also didn’t take the stairs at work today, I don’t really know if i just didn’t remember or if I was lazy. Maybe I can save myself and try for 2 times tomorrow!
• And here is my blog, and I am going to say something negative because it will get off my chest. With all that is going on in my life, I am hating that fact that my mother cannot be a positive, or even neutral influence, but insists on making comments about things!!!!!!

Thats it for tonight, I am going to cross-stitch and realx!

Thanksgiving Monday

Good evening everyone, I am glad to say that after a 4 day weekend I am actually glad to be going to work tomorrow! It will get me out of this house!

However today was a very productive day. We had Thanksgiving dinner yesterday so we didn’t have so much mess today. So we made stock – turkey stock, and lots of it!

So now we have enough stock for a bit to make lots of yummy stuff that Dean is learning in school!

I was quite proud of my breakfast this morning, even though Dean needed to help save it from being scrambled.

A yummy omelette with mushrooms, spinach, ham and cheese!   

Supper was also interesting, home made chow mien, steak and mashed potatoes, presented nicely on a plate.

 

After supper it was still nice out so we headed to the trail for a nice walk and talk. I also got some pictures of the nice fall sunset.

      

 

 

Now on to my goals for the week.

• I got 3 servings of vegetables and fruit in today. I was going to have some pineapple with chocolate syrup but Dean took out a cheese cake from the freezer, and lets face it, It looks better (it has strawberries on it if that counts??)
• I didn’t have toast today for breakfast I instead chose to have my omelette. I didn’t have any white bread today except for a home made roll that was left over from yesterdays dinner.
• I went for a half hour walk today with Dean, it was very relaxing. I also did “wood” which basically means stacking it from one place to another.
• And finally I am blogging, and I don’t think any thing was negative! Go me!

  Night everyone, I am ready for a 4-day work week!!

Waiting for the world to change

Ok here we go, I am done waiting for other people to change. I think for a long time I have waited for others to change around me so I could feel comfortable changing too. Well that is enough of this bullshit. I know now that the only one who can change me, is me. And while I have amazing support from people like my husband, I don’t have that support in all areas of my life (my mother unfortunately being one of them).

So with out further ado here is my plan, I am going to start small with a weekly goal.

• Eat 3 – 4 servings of fruits and vegetables a day. While this is not up to par with what we should all eat, this is a challenge for me and I will strive to get better each week.
• Reduce the amount of refined breads/cereals I eat. Last Friday was grocery day so we have bought white bread, but this Friday when we go again I will buy whole wheat and get all the chemical crap out of my system.
• Exercise 2 – 3 times this week. Right now Deans gym membership is up so I am only looking at today and Saturday as big exercise days. But I will get something else in there somewhere.
• Take the stairs at work once a day (I work on the 5th floor). That means up, in my head I plan to take them down all the time, but we will see. However I think once a day will work wonders for me to start with.
• Blog everyday, trying to stay in the positive and not the negative. I am very good at being negative, and it is probably one of my downfalls, so I am only allowing myself one negative comment to blog on a day. Everything else will hopefully focus on the positive or what I can do to be better.

So if I can do good with this for the week I am going to reward myself with something from Clinique. I get my makeup there and want something new, so that will be it.

Food Addiction

So one of the things I did on the weekend was borrow some books from Lynn. One was called Food Addiction. I started looking through it at her place but had to stop because all of the information, even in the first few pages, hit home with me so hard I was ready to have an anxiety attack. 

So when I got home today I started reading it, I’m on page 17 and it has now become evidently clear that I am a Food Addict. Wow there is it out here for everyone to see now… So since this is the case, and I have been having a very hard time with dealing with this most of the afternoon I have come down to 2 choices.

1. I am a food addict and I can fight the addiction, which will be hard, time consuming and emotionally draining.

OR

2. I live with the addiction until I am either consumed by it or feel I have the will power to fight it.

The truth of the matter is I don’t know what do to. I have been back and forth on this for a very long time with these very issues. There are days where I think I am not that unhealthy, and then there are days where I want to change it. So all this means, using my nursing knowledge, is that I am in the pre-contemplation stage of my addiction. I have accepted that it is there, but I am not ready to do anything about it, but am thinking of doing something in the future.

All that being said I am in need of help, I have great supports through my friends and my husband. So I will think about this tonight, very hard. But as I am sitting here thinking now, I can’t go back to denial, and I don’t won’t be someone who is addicted to something, something as  basic as food. So I will read on through the book, I will educate myself about my addiction and then come up with a game plan.

Until I come up with a true game plan I will focus on eating right. We spent all afternoon cooking and baking healthy things and I want them and everyday will be a challenge.

A wonderful weekend.

Morning bloggers, hope everyone is having a good weekend. Mine has been good so far and will probably get better. The only complaint I have is that I don’t have pictures… I am so bad for that. But to see some head over to Lynn’s blog for the events of yesterday.

Well I’ll start with Friday which was a busy day at work, followed by groceries and Dean making an awesome supper of Salmon, rice and Spaghetti Squash, which is one of my new favourite vegetables! We relaxed with a bottle of wine and hit bed at a good hour.

Saturday was awesome, Lynn called early to see if we wanted to head in to town to do some shopping so we got ready and away we went. We headed to Chapters which was awesome, we still had a gift card from the wedding for there and ended up getting a good load of books. I am excited to be reading!!

We headed back to Lynn and Jays and hung around, Lynn made an awesome supper and we shared a bottle of wine. We then played some poker and I won!! Ha-ha, felt good even though it wasn’t real money. We also played some Scrabble and Lynn made me a header for my blog which I love! It’s so girly!!!

Unfortunately this morning I feel sick, my floor at work has a cold going around and of course I caught it on the weekend!!grrrr. So today we only have a few baking things to do and then I will relax with my books I think. All in all it will be a wonderful weekend!!!

still searching

Good Evening.

I am sad to report I am still soul searching. I have had a few crappy days and I am sure I am driving my loving husband crazy!

I hate to whine, and whimper but I will be honest in saying that I am. I don’t know what is wrong with me, I don’t know if it’s ever going to sink in.

Part of me thinks I need to go to counselling or something. Or get medical help to feel better about myself. And it’s not just my weight, or my image, its just how I feel in general.

It’s Wednesday already and I am exhausted. I cannot wait for the weekend. and it will go way too fast, I just know it. well that’s about it, I don’t feel I can blog well when I have too many thoughts all mixed up in my head.

I will leave everyone with this though, could you please send a prayer for my Papa?

Thanks

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Soul Searching

Well I must say I haven't been following my plan, at all. And I am very discouraged about it. I know I want this, I know I need it. If I didn’t want it then I wouldn’t settle and I could leave it all and not care, but I can’t seem to do that, I’ve tried.

So now I am doing this, Dean will help me and I am asking anyone and everyone for help. I am scared to fail again, and I am really thinking this is almost impossible, but I will do it.

So I need help with some creative healthy snacks and meals. I also need some help finding some activity that I will enjoy. I used to enjoy walking but where we are at now the scenery is the highway and I find that very dull and boring. I would love to have something at home like a treadmill or something but there honestly isn’t any room. Me and Dean will still go to the gym, and I am honestly going to try to do 40 minutes on the cardio machines.

I am done making up excuses and done not doing things, I have the support and there is no reason I can’t do this!!!!

WWE Weekend

Good Evening bloggers, hope everyone had a safe and happy weekend. I know I did. So Saturday morning showed up early when the clock showed 6:40 and I was wide awake. So up I got and Dean made me some wonderful scrambled eggs! We puttered around the house for a while, I got the wedding pictures on CD and Dean cleaned up and packed a bit for our night at the Delta Barrington! We left the house around 1030 and went to Wal-Mart where I printed off the Wedding pictures and I’ll tell ya there were alot of them! So after that we got some lunch and I stopped at work to drop off some timbits to my staff and pick up my coffee thermos. We checked into the Delta and had a drink at the lounge then went up to our room!

Then after relaxing a bit we walked up to Bubba Rays Sports bar. Dean had gone there for his Bachelor party and said they had 50 different types of sauces to go on Chicken wings. I definitely had to try it!!

 

After supper we headed down to the Metro Center to wait for the doors to open for WWE RAW! We got there really early and had some good shots to take of Citadel Hill.

  So the doors opened and we went it. It was a good event and my first time seeing it live. But I must admit I like it better on TV! After the event we went to the casino with some friends where they were having UFC. Now I used to like MMA but haven't been much of a fan lately. So me and Dean went out on the floor and played some machines. We put 30 $ in and on our very last play we won 30 $! So we left with nothing out of our pockets! We headed back to our hotel room where we received a lovely surprise of 2 Cheese plates and glasses of wine because we had mentioned at the front desk we got married last weekend.   And then we went to bed.

Today was good, we got up and went to breakfast. We ran some errands and then came home and are relaxing for the evening. The week should be a good but busy one, but I am going to try my hardest to eat good and exercise!

It’s Friday!!!

Good evening bloggers. I took a break yesterday because my day wasn’t all that exciting and my food was about the same as it’s been all week. I did get to the gym and I was so sleepy when I got home that I sat in front of the TV and napped most of the evening.

Today though was a pretty good day overall and I am soooo glad it’s Friday!

Work was a good day, I love the staff I worked with today and I hadn’t seen them since I have been back and she was so excited to hear about the wedding, and since my pictures are on Facebook now I got to show them to alot of people.

I got off and we headed home, Dean made supper and it was awesome, Steak and baked potatoes with mashed sweet potatoes! Then we came down to relax and got a upsetting call. Deans parents live in Winnipeg and their 17 year old dog (yea old!) had to be put down today because she was full of cancer. It was upsetting and we are all sad, but at 17 it is safe to say she lived a good life, and all doge go to heaven!!!

So tonight we are relaxing and getting excited for tomorrow where we go to a WWE Raw house event at the metro center. We also have a room booked at the Delta Barrington and are looking at this as a little honeymoon!

My Dad goes back to Ont. Tomorrow which kind of sux but he has been home for 2 weeks and had a good vacation, now its time for everyone to relax and get back into a routine!

 

First day back at it.

Well today was my first day back to work as MRS. Anderson. It was a good day not much to catch up on (that might be since I was getting my e-mails at home…) And over all a productive day. I had to wait for Dean to pick me up but I sat outside and read a bit. Then we ran some errands on the way home.

I am fundraising for the 5 Center unit fund and we are keeping our bottles from the unit to bring in. Today which was our first bag was 3.10 – which is pathetic. I am trying to find some other good ways to fundraise but I am not sure what to do. Does anyone have any ideas of what to do???

I finished Time Travelers Wife and have started Cujo. I am not sure if I will like it. But I do like Stephen King so we shall see. I don’t have alot to choose from right now on my book shelf and maybe that is a hint to start some cross-stitching… I’ll see after this week.

My review of The Time Travelers Wife is a 3.5 out of 5. And while it was better than the movie I found it  hard to read and wasn’t really happy with the ending. But I would recommend it, especially if you have seen the movie.

So my eats today were all over the board. Breakfast started with a strawberry ricekrispy square and some vanilla milk. I often find waking up at 5:00 that I am nauseated and can’t eat alot.  I then had a coffee, and think I put a little too much cream in it. I was offered to split fish and chips with a co-worker and did so… yea I know bad me, but it tasted good. And then had my salad that I packed. I also had some yogurt and a granola bar at work. Supper was spaghetti with ground pork and mushrooms, yummy! there may have been some garlic fingers in there too….

So now I am all settled in for the evening, not sure what we are going to do yet. I would like to watch a movie but if I mention it I know I will be the one to have to pick one…

Nite everyone!

The start of the evening posts.

Good evening bloggies, this is the start of my evening posts. The way I see it most of my posts will be in the evening after I get home from work.

So today was productive. I finished the laundry and am almost finished my book. I have about 70 pages left and about 2 – 3 hours to read it… yea it might happen.

I also got most of my wedding pictures in order to put on a disk and facebook and things like that. Here are some of my fave’s:

Ok so there they are! And that is just some of them. So after my morning I headed in with Mom and Dad and met Dean and we headed to the gym! I only did 25mins on the treadmill, but better than nothing. Then we ran a few errands and came home.

The afternoon was relaxing, and then we had a nice supper. Followed by me making salad for the next 3 days of work! That is right I cannot complain about making lunches as all the hard work is done! Now me and Dean are relaxing on the couch and waiting for the season premier of The Biggest Loser!

So my eats today were kind of good kind of bad. Breakfast was some raisin toast with butter and a yogurt. I didn’t have a snack through the morning which was good in a way because while I was waiting for Dean at Sobeys I had Chicken Tenders and Taters… Then on the way home we bought a small pack of mini eggs (that's right they are around all year). Supper was yummy shake n bake chicken and baked potatoes with peas. So I am thinking not too bad. I don’t know what will happen for a small snack tonight, maybe some pudding…. Anyway tomorrow is back to work….

Last day of vacation:(

Good morning, well today is my last day of vacation. I didn’t get an evening post in about my eats last night because I was not feeling great and just wanted to read my book. I am reading The Time Travellers Wife. It is good and I am enjoying it. I am going to try to finish it off today though.

So my eats yesterday started off good. Breakfast was cereal with a banana on top. Then I had a snack of 1 cup of melon (honeydew and cantaloupe). For Lunch I finished off the Chinese food that was in the fridge. It was so bad as most of it was chow mien. Then I took the turn for the worse. There was still chips and chip dip left so I dived into that. Blah, I felt guilty but what could ya do? So Supper was roast beef mashed potatoes and carrots and was very good. Then me and Dean had to go out for a few things and I bought some pop (non diet), grrr. And rounded the night out with popcorn, but I didn’t eat the whole bag!

Today I have one more load of laundry to do, and I think I will be going to the gym if all works out vehicle wise. I also may play around with Photoshop some more editing pictures from the wedding. Here is one I did myself;

 

Ha there we go, Well I may be back again tonight, we will have to wait and see. 

Mrs. Dean Anderson (that’s me)!

Ok good morning to the people of blog land. I am now a married woman and happy to say that my wedding day was awesome! I couldn’t have asked for a better day. I danced my feet off and am still sore from it, but oh well!!!

And now that I am married and my “new” life is starting I will be trying to blog more often, and get better at it. And also I am going to lose this weight and be healthy!!!

I got on the scale this morning and to my surprise I was below 180! Ok so not by much, 179.5, but still i was surprised to see it. So I am now onto sparkpeople and my goal for now is to be 160 by March when we go away for our hunnymoon!

And now for some pictures! I have started using Windows Live Writer because I didn’t like the way Blogger was inserting pictures. I found it too hard to do. And while I still need to work on this it’s pretty cool, and seems alot easier. 

 

 

 

And there we have it some awesome pictures taken by awesome people. Check out Lynn for some other pictures she has been editing for me.

So that will wrap up for now as this has taken some time, but I will be back with my eats this evening!!

Last post as a single woman

Haha, So its Thursday, two freaking days away and I will be married. I have been busy but also enjoying my vacation. Today is jammed ful of errands and getting money and dropping stuff off and those type of things but it is sunny out (although a bit cold) and I am excited.

Dean has been at school all week, and I must say I enjoy my mornings alone, at first I didn't and it felt really odd, but now I like just puttering around in my PJ's for a bit and then get up and get going. Dean is a wake up shower and get dressed kinda man and then I feel like I should be dressed (I shower at night usually). So this pace is nice, espically for vacation.

So Like I said today is busy running errands, and tommorow is my rehersal dinner and a few more errands and then Saturday is the big day!!!! I am so excited and can't wait for it all to be over and settled down so I can start kicking my butt skinny!!!

The count down is on....

OK good morning bloggers, its a cool chilly morning here on the Eastern Shore and I am so proud to say that my husband to be has his first day of school today! He waited to go back until he knew what he wanted and now that he does he is hitting it full force. I know that he was nervous this morning, but I know he will kick ass!

On my end of things I am on vacation and still will end up going into work today. I have some errands to run that way today and we are having a baby shower for on of the girls. She has been through a lot and also this way I can check up on my residents... lol.

I also plan to send off a lot of e-mails to confirm all my wedding plans with people and get the final payments arranged. My parents who I love dearly, came down with a cheque last night which will cover most of it, which is on top of what they have already paid. It means so much to me that they would do this.

And I will leave you all with a picture of my proposal scrabble board...

5 Days left as a single woman....

So the wedding is very close now, in like less than a week! I had a busy week at work last week and had my final dress fitting, also got groceries and shopped a bit. This weekend was my baccalaureate party and it was a blast. I am glad to say that I am feeling better now, although this morning I was not well at all. I slept most of the day and while there were pics taken they weren't on my camera. I got a spa day too and had a facial and manicure and pedicure and loved every minute of that. I am all glamed up now and ready to get married!

This week will be busy. My dad is in from Ont. and with the wedding stuff to do I will be kept busy. I need to take my dress to get steamed, and have to pick it back up. And just work all the last minute details out. But I am glad to say it is all coming together!!!!

2 weeks untill the big day!!!

OK so first off, it's 2 weeks until my wedding!!!!!! Super excited about that, and it is all coming together as well. We have got almost everything done, the last step, and the painful one, is paying for it all! But we will make due!

Scale wise I am about the same, which is fine I guess. I hate the fact that I wasn't able to loose anything for the wedding but I am excited to have the goal to do it once all this craziness is over with. I am thinking of putting together a post with some pictures of all my different weights. That's if I can find any decent pics. I was looking last night and there are some, but not a whole lot.

Plans for the weekend? Well not much for me I don't think. Dean's Bachelor party is tonight and I think I will be chilling at a friends waiting for them to be done, and today I just wanna tidy up a bit, maybe start a cross-stitch. I have been wanting to get back into them for a bit now, just can't seem to find the time. Tomorrow I may have to go into work, but if I don't it will still just be a relaxing day at home. Maybe do some laundry with are insanely slow washer!

Well that is about it for me, the count down is on and I will be busy the next few weeks, but it is exciting all the same!!!

Hurricain Sunday!

Good afternoon everyone, hope you are all enjoying the weather more than me! We are sitting in a hurricain and our basement is flooding some, the power is out for alot of people and the rain just dosn't want to stop.

That being said I am in my comfy's reading and watching TV relaxing. We had a late night last night at friends and are a little sleepy today. That being said we don't like lazing around and are getting board. But thats ok!

My weigh in this week wasn`t what I wanted to see, but it`s all my own fault, and while I am not happy with it I will survive.

I want to mention congrats to Lynn Who is down 100 lbs! I am so proud and she is a huge inspiration, now if she could only lend me her motivation for a while!

Well that is it for now, just sitting through the storm!

Back down in the valley

Well I am not sure if it's the heat, or the 5 day work week, or just my eating habits this week but I am back down low in the valley of self pity!

I feel gross, I feel like I have no energy, I am so sleepy I can't even watch a TV show past 730! I want to do something exciting and fun this weekend but don't want to at all because I feel so gross!

I know that I can loose weight I know I can try to do better and loose weight and be healthy but for some reason I can't do it. It sux! I am so mad at myself and so upset I don't even know what to do.

Well I guess I can say I ranted, and I feel well not better but it's out there. And maybe I can feel better tomorrow. And maybe I will feel better next week.

A long hot day...

Well when I got to work today with the humidex inside it was 36, when I left it was 40... Yea hot. It's like a sauna only you can't get out. So needless to say it was gross. And today seemed to drag on forever. It was long and hot and gross. So now I am home and just want to lay in bed and stay cool. My only saving grace is that our bedroom is in the basement so it is nice and cool. So we may go to the beach after supper and get some icecream and then head back home and early to bed.

I love the nice weather but is sux to work in!!

A busy weekend

OK So this was my first real weekend off after my first 5 day work week!!!

And we were busy! Yesterday we headed into town to pick up some things and run some errands. Then we headed to a fundraiser for the Relay for Life, and then met up with some old friends and hit the beach. We left the house around 930, and other than a quick stop to change and drop off out buys from the city we didn't get home till about 830.

We (well hunny) wanted to stay up late, and Ive been wanting to watch the DaVinci Code again since I read the book. And we had a few drinks, while by the first one I was falling asleep and I made it about 3/4's of the way thru the second before Dean said we could go to sleep, which was about 1030!

But I was up by 730 and we have been pretty busy today and havn't stopped. I had some breakfast and we went out so Dean could practice backing up, as he takes his drivers test this week (good luck hun!). Then it was back home where I went through my clothes and changed the bed, and we worked on our song list for the wedding reception. Dean is now washing the car and I am e-mailing some ppl and working on wedding stuff (lists and whatnot)

I am hoping to go to the Beach tonight but we will see.

Need to find the motivation....

Ok so the last few days I have been totally not paying attention to what I eat. And that is a lie because I know what I am eating and how unhealthy it is for me but I can't seem to care really. But I think I know why. I am getting married in less than a month and I lost 3 lbs last week. Part of that is really good, but then I thought that if I loose too much my dress won't fit! So that is part of it. The rest of it is just there is so much going on right now that I can't get organized. I am in my new job and that is a bit stressful, and working 5 days a week now is a bit stressful too.

So here is my new commitment. I am not going to track my food until after the wedding. I am still going to weigh in once a week. And my new goal is to be in the 160's (preferably lower) by March 1st. We are going away down south then for our honeymoon and I want to look good. So that is it, I will still blog but this is about maintenance for the month and then I will get back to it.

I hope to get to the gym still but that is for stress relief not nessacarly weight loss.

So that is it, my thoughts in my head make sense!

ok, hump day!

So today is hump day! On my first full week of work, and I am already exhuasted. But I will prevail. Not much to say, my eating has sucked, and while i'm not ok with that It is all my fault. But I am going to deal with it, wow this is going to turn into a blab session which dosn't make sense, so I will leave it at that and get my thoughts together.

Just wanted to share

Hey everybody, I just wanted to share this song with you; one of my staff wrote it and it is him singing it. We work on a special care floor, so people who are confused and have dementia.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQdN9mvXiTo

Thanks guys

water???

Good Evening everyone,

Well we still have no running water, but the plummer has been here for the day and is pretty sure we will have water by the time we go to bed. My eats today were horrible and I am going to leave it at that.

My day at work was busy and I am very sleepy. And the JP is comming over to talk about the ceremony, and then I will be heading to bed and reading and then going to bed, work again in the morning!

Night bloggies

Wedding Shower fun

Good Morning bloggies, well after a lovely wedding shower yesterday and quite a few drinks of blueberry wine it was a good day. The festivities stared around 1 I picked Lynn and returned to my house where my throne was decorated....

So the fun began and I opend some gifts, which were mostly gift cards which made me happy! Dean also got a cookie jar out of the deal and I scored some other interesting stuff. So once the gift opening was done it was time for my crown........

Then some food....

What I didn't show was the plate of sweets I ate, or the numerous glasses of wine I drank....

All in all it was a good day, Now I am off to my Aunts becuase we have no running water here and need to get it fixed, but I need to be clean and have clean clothes for work! Have a good sunday bloggies!

Early Satuday morning

Ok good morning everyone, Rarely do I blog this early but I guess waking up more than 3 days in a row at an ungodly hour means that it works on the weekend too. Was up at 6 but didn't crawl out of bed until about now, 730 or so, I just read my book. I am ready the first Harry Potter book which is easy to read which is what I wanted.

Today is my wedding shower, and I am being kicked out until about 1 so mom can decorate and things, which I don't mind, I will just take Dean down to a friends.

I weighed in today, which I think I will make my new weigh in day and I was down 3 lbs! I am super happy with that. I am going to try to eat good today even though I know there will be alot of good stuff to eat, but I did pick up a huge fruit and veggie tray so I will try to stick to that.

Other than that not much to say, relaxed last night and plans for tomorrow depend on the weather!

Crazy day!

OMG!!! That about says how my day was.... Insane. I was so busy I didn't even get a lunch break. And on top of that who knew a cinnamon bun was like 400 calories???? I didn't, I was thinking like 250 but no 420 freaking calories...





However the not eating lunch made up for it I guess, but if I had of ate lunch I would have been up for going to the gym.





And it was so hot at work if I don't loose weight from sweating so much I will be shocked!





Other than the fact that the day was busy it was a good day, we had pasta for supper and I didn't go over my calorie's!

And to close a pic of my kitty making love to my shoes, he likes my shoes....

A better day

Well today was a better day I am feeling better mostly. Still don't feel confident with the wedding plans but I am ok with that.

Work was a good day, busy but good.

Well I wanna relax the rest of the night so I will chill now, have a good night!

Wedding Stress!!!!!

Ok so I will start with the good things that happened today....

No, good things did happen. I started my clinical leader position today and was happy to learn that things up on 5C weren't quite as bad as they appeared. Now tomorrow is Doctor day so we shall see how that goes...

And another good thing, we went to the gym, and Dean made a lovely supper of hamburgers and baked potato.

And that is where the good stops and the bad begins. As I couldn't enjoy my supper because I was so mad over my wedding and things are going crazy on that front. So it's bad enough Deans grandparents couldn't come (well won't come but anyway), but I now have to deal with my divorced grandparents acting like they are 12. My grandmother will come to the ceremony but not the reception because, and I quote; "I don't know what your (grand)father will do". Now she said this to my mom a few days ago and it pissed her off too. The RSVP I got was that she was coming to the ceremony (only).................

Like come on these people are in their 70's and apparently can't be civil for their granddaughters wedding??? So I was upset about that plus the fact that we are not getting the responses through RSVP that we need to even have the type of meal we want (buffet). I was so mad I could, oh wait, did cry!

Well that was mostly my day, the rest was sitting contemplating what to do about the reception, and if I will even speak to my grandmother again.

Hope tomorrow is better!

A supper time expierment

Well I don't normally blog twice in one day but we had an expierment at supper and I took pics!So my eats today were wonderful, I will be at 1238 calories once i have my jello and cool whip. We didn't get to the gym or a movie, just relaxed at home, which was nice. So here is the goods, tell me what did I have for supper??

And a close up...

Ok so it looks like mashed potatoes right?? Well it's not, its mashed Cauliflower. Which even though it looked like mashed potatoes sad to say its not near as good. And next time I will just stick to boiled cauliflower. It was bland and watery. Now we may substitute some for some potatoes next time to make it less calories.

So it wasn't the best but I can see a change in mashed potatoes maybe. Have a good evening.

Back to rain...

So yesterday was another awesome day. I didn't get in as much sun as I wanted because it was so hot but that also means I didn't burn!

Dean mowed the whole lawn which probably took him about 2 hours, we had a good trip to the grocery store, only picking up what was on the list. And I got all the laundry done except for a small load of towels!

And my eats were right on. And Supper was an awesome salad with chicken skewers on them! Some times I wished I took pics of some of my food like some other Halibloggers because that salad looked awesome, maybe I will start.

The evening was spent sipping a few glasses of wine and watching a movie, that we again didn't finish, and then we slept in until 9:00!

Today is rainy and gross, we might go into a movie and if we do I am gonna see about going to the gym. Supper is already planned and will be fairly low cal, and I start my new position tomorrow... eeeekkkk!

Needless to say it will be early to bed for me!

Good day yesterday... looks better today

So the past few days have been good. Eating wise not so much but activity wise good.

Friday we went and hunny had a driving lesson and I went for my dress fitting. Then we went to the Mongoli grill with friends and headed back to there place for some planning about our honeymoon. We are going down south and figure they should come, the more the merrier right?

Yesterday I worked out at their place before we left... oh how I would love to have a treadmill in my home... And we headed into the city because the boys had to get sized for tux's. I must admit I was not fond of the woman helping us at all...and I may make a compliant against her. She was rude and bossy and rushed us in and out.
Afterwords we went for lunch at Boston Pizza, wasn't too impressed with my lunch but didn't eat it all and will probably finish it today.

Then we headed to the VV Boutique (aka Value Village), and I got a new top a pair of pants and some books. Then we headed home and made pizza for supper, was very good, and then went down to the beach for a walk in the sunset... which was very nice and the water was cold but my feet got used to it... or did they go numb?

When we got home we tried to watch a movie but I fell asleep so we just went to bed.

Today I woke up and it was sunny! None of this cloud that has to burn off first, it was actually sunny! So today I plan on laying on the deck and getting a tan... but first we have to clean up and go get some groceries ... blah...