still searching

Good Evening.

I am sad to report I am still soul searching. I have had a few crappy days and I am sure I am driving my loving husband crazy!

I hate to whine, and whimper but I will be honest in saying that I am. I don’t know what is wrong with me, I don’t know if it’s ever going to sink in.

Part of me thinks I need to go to counselling or something. Or get medical help to feel better about myself. And it’s not just my weight, or my image, its just how I feel in general.

It’s Wednesday already and I am exhausted. I cannot wait for the weekend. and it will go way too fast, I just know it. well that’s about it, I don’t feel I can blog well when I have too many thoughts all mixed up in my head.

I will leave everyone with this though, could you please send a prayer for my Papa?

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Soul Searching

Well I must say I haven't been following my plan, at all. And I am very discouraged about it. I know I want this, I know I need it. If I didn’t want it then I wouldn’t settle and I could leave it all and not care, but I can’t seem to do that, I’ve tried.

So now I am doing this, Dean will help me and I am asking anyone and everyone for help. I am scared to fail again, and I am really thinking this is almost impossible, but I will do it.

So I need help with some creative healthy snacks and meals. I also need some help finding some activity that I will enjoy. I used to enjoy walking but where we are at now the scenery is the highway and I find that very dull and boring. I would love to have something at home like a treadmill or something but there honestly isn’t any room. Me and Dean will still go to the gym, and I am honestly going to try to do 40 minutes on the cardio machines.

I am done making up excuses and done not doing things, I have the support and there is no reason I can’t do this!!!!

WWE Weekend

Good Evening bloggers, hope everyone had a safe and happy weekend. I know I did. So Saturday morning showed up early when the clock showed 6:40 and I was wide awake. So up I got and Dean made me some wonderful scrambled eggs! We puttered around the house for a while, I got the wedding pictures on CD and Dean cleaned up and packed a bit for our night at the Delta Barrington! We left the house around 1030 and went to Wal-Mart where I printed off the Wedding pictures and I’ll tell ya there were alot of them! So after that we got some lunch and I stopped at work to drop off some timbits to my staff and pick up my coffee thermos. We checked into the Delta and had a drink at the lounge then went up to our room!

Then after relaxing a bit we walked up to Bubba Rays Sports bar. Dean had gone there for his Bachelor party and said they had 50 different types of sauces to go on Chicken wings. I definitely had to try it!!

 

After supper we headed down to the Metro Center to wait for the doors to open for WWE RAW! We got there really early and had some good shots to take of Citadel Hill.

  So the doors opened and we went it. It was a good event and my first time seeing it live. But I must admit I like it better on TV! After the event we went to the casino with some friends where they were having UFC. Now I used to like MMA but haven't been much of a fan lately. So me and Dean went out on the floor and played some machines. We put 30 $ in and on our very last play we won 30 $! So we left with nothing out of our pockets! We headed back to our hotel room where we received a lovely surprise of 2 Cheese plates and glasses of wine because we had mentioned at the front desk we got married last weekend.   And then we went to bed.

Today was good, we got up and went to breakfast. We ran some errands and then came home and are relaxing for the evening. The week should be a good but busy one, but I am going to try my hardest to eat good and exercise!

It’s Friday!!!

Good evening bloggers. I took a break yesterday because my day wasn’t all that exciting and my food was about the same as it’s been all week. I did get to the gym and I was so sleepy when I got home that I sat in front of the TV and napped most of the evening.

Today though was a pretty good day overall and I am soooo glad it’s Friday!

Work was a good day, I love the staff I worked with today and I hadn’t seen them since I have been back and she was so excited to hear about the wedding, and since my pictures are on Facebook now I got to show them to alot of people.

I got off and we headed home, Dean made supper and it was awesome, Steak and baked potatoes with mashed sweet potatoes! Then we came down to relax and got a upsetting call. Deans parents live in Winnipeg and their 17 year old dog (yea old!) had to be put down today because she was full of cancer. It was upsetting and we are all sad, but at 17 it is safe to say she lived a good life, and all doge go to heaven!!!

So tonight we are relaxing and getting excited for tomorrow where we go to a WWE Raw house event at the metro center. We also have a room booked at the Delta Barrington and are looking at this as a little honeymoon!

My Dad goes back to Ont. Tomorrow which kind of sux but he has been home for 2 weeks and had a good vacation, now its time for everyone to relax and get back into a routine!

 

First day back at it.

Well today was my first day back to work as MRS. Anderson. It was a good day not much to catch up on (that might be since I was getting my e-mails at home…) And over all a productive day. I had to wait for Dean to pick me up but I sat outside and read a bit. Then we ran some errands on the way home.

I am fundraising for the 5 Center unit fund and we are keeping our bottles from the unit to bring in. Today which was our first bag was 3.10 – which is pathetic. I am trying to find some other good ways to fundraise but I am not sure what to do. Does anyone have any ideas of what to do???

I finished Time Travelers Wife and have started Cujo. I am not sure if I will like it. But I do like Stephen King so we shall see. I don’t have alot to choose from right now on my book shelf and maybe that is a hint to start some cross-stitching… I’ll see after this week.

My review of The Time Travelers Wife is a 3.5 out of 5. And while it was better than the movie I found it  hard to read and wasn’t really happy with the ending. But I would recommend it, especially if you have seen the movie.

So my eats today were all over the board. Breakfast started with a strawberry ricekrispy square and some vanilla milk. I often find waking up at 5:00 that I am nauseated and can’t eat alot.  I then had a coffee, and think I put a little too much cream in it. I was offered to split fish and chips with a co-worker and did so… yea I know bad me, but it tasted good. And then had my salad that I packed. I also had some yogurt and a granola bar at work. Supper was spaghetti with ground pork and mushrooms, yummy! there may have been some garlic fingers in there too….

So now I am all settled in for the evening, not sure what we are going to do yet. I would like to watch a movie but if I mention it I know I will be the one to have to pick one…

Nite everyone!

The start of the evening posts.

Good evening bloggies, this is the start of my evening posts. The way I see it most of my posts will be in the evening after I get home from work.

So today was productive. I finished the laundry and am almost finished my book. I have about 70 pages left and about 2 – 3 hours to read it… yea it might happen.

I also got most of my wedding pictures in order to put on a disk and facebook and things like that. Here are some of my fave’s:

Ok so there they are! And that is just some of them. So after my morning I headed in with Mom and Dad and met Dean and we headed to the gym! I only did 25mins on the treadmill, but better than nothing. Then we ran a few errands and came home.

The afternoon was relaxing, and then we had a nice supper. Followed by me making salad for the next 3 days of work! That is right I cannot complain about making lunches as all the hard work is done! Now me and Dean are relaxing on the couch and waiting for the season premier of The Biggest Loser!

So my eats today were kind of good kind of bad. Breakfast was some raisin toast with butter and a yogurt. I didn’t have a snack through the morning which was good in a way because while I was waiting for Dean at Sobeys I had Chicken Tenders and Taters… Then on the way home we bought a small pack of mini eggs (that's right they are around all year). Supper was yummy shake n bake chicken and baked potatoes with peas. So I am thinking not too bad. I don’t know what will happen for a small snack tonight, maybe some pudding…. Anyway tomorrow is back to work….

Last day of vacation:(

Good morning, well today is my last day of vacation. I didn’t get an evening post in about my eats last night because I was not feeling great and just wanted to read my book. I am reading The Time Travellers Wife. It is good and I am enjoying it. I am going to try to finish it off today though.

So my eats yesterday started off good. Breakfast was cereal with a banana on top. Then I had a snack of 1 cup of melon (honeydew and cantaloupe). For Lunch I finished off the Chinese food that was in the fridge. It was so bad as most of it was chow mien. Then I took the turn for the worse. There was still chips and chip dip left so I dived into that. Blah, I felt guilty but what could ya do? So Supper was roast beef mashed potatoes and carrots and was very good. Then me and Dean had to go out for a few things and I bought some pop (non diet), grrr. And rounded the night out with popcorn, but I didn’t eat the whole bag!

Today I have one more load of laundry to do, and I think I will be going to the gym if all works out vehicle wise. I also may play around with Photoshop some more editing pictures from the wedding. Here is one I did myself;

 

Ha there we go, Well I may be back again tonight, we will have to wait and see. 

Mrs. Dean Anderson (that’s me)!

Ok good morning to the people of blog land. I am now a married woman and happy to say that my wedding day was awesome! I couldn’t have asked for a better day. I danced my feet off and am still sore from it, but oh well!!!

And now that I am married and my “new” life is starting I will be trying to blog more often, and get better at it. And also I am going to lose this weight and be healthy!!!

I got on the scale this morning and to my surprise I was below 180! Ok so not by much, 179.5, but still i was surprised to see it. So I am now onto sparkpeople and my goal for now is to be 160 by March when we go away for our hunnymoon!

And now for some pictures! I have started using Windows Live Writer because I didn’t like the way Blogger was inserting pictures. I found it too hard to do. And while I still need to work on this it’s pretty cool, and seems alot easier. 

 

 

 

And there we have it some awesome pictures taken by awesome people. Check out Lynn for some other pictures she has been editing for me.

So that will wrap up for now as this has taken some time, but I will be back with my eats this evening!!

Last post as a single woman

Haha, So its Thursday, two freaking days away and I will be married. I have been busy but also enjoying my vacation. Today is jammed ful of errands and getting money and dropping stuff off and those type of things but it is sunny out (although a bit cold) and I am excited.

Dean has been at school all week, and I must say I enjoy my mornings alone, at first I didn't and it felt really odd, but now I like just puttering around in my PJ's for a bit and then get up and get going. Dean is a wake up shower and get dressed kinda man and then I feel like I should be dressed (I shower at night usually). So this pace is nice, espically for vacation.

So Like I said today is busy running errands, and tommorow is my rehersal dinner and a few more errands and then Saturday is the big day!!!! I am so excited and can't wait for it all to be over and settled down so I can start kicking my butt skinny!!!

The count down is on....

OK good morning bloggers, its a cool chilly morning here on the Eastern Shore and I am so proud to say that my husband to be has his first day of school today! He waited to go back until he knew what he wanted and now that he does he is hitting it full force. I know that he was nervous this morning, but I know he will kick ass!

On my end of things I am on vacation and still will end up going into work today. I have some errands to run that way today and we are having a baby shower for on of the girls. She has been through a lot and also this way I can check up on my residents... lol.

I also plan to send off a lot of e-mails to confirm all my wedding plans with people and get the final payments arranged. My parents who I love dearly, came down with a cheque last night which will cover most of it, which is on top of what they have already paid. It means so much to me that they would do this.

And I will leave you all with a picture of my proposal scrabble board...

5 Days left as a single woman....

So the wedding is very close now, in like less than a week! I had a busy week at work last week and had my final dress fitting, also got groceries and shopped a bit. This weekend was my baccalaureate party and it was a blast. I am glad to say that I am feeling better now, although this morning I was not well at all. I slept most of the day and while there were pics taken they weren't on my camera. I got a spa day too and had a facial and manicure and pedicure and loved every minute of that. I am all glamed up now and ready to get married!

This week will be busy. My dad is in from Ont. and with the wedding stuff to do I will be kept busy. I need to take my dress to get steamed, and have to pick it back up. And just work all the last minute details out. But I am glad to say it is all coming together!!!!

2 weeks untill the big day!!!

OK so first off, it's 2 weeks until my wedding!!!!!! Super excited about that, and it is all coming together as well. We have got almost everything done, the last step, and the painful one, is paying for it all! But we will make due!

Scale wise I am about the same, which is fine I guess. I hate the fact that I wasn't able to loose anything for the wedding but I am excited to have the goal to do it once all this craziness is over with. I am thinking of putting together a post with some pictures of all my different weights. That's if I can find any decent pics. I was looking last night and there are some, but not a whole lot.

Plans for the weekend? Well not much for me I don't think. Dean's Bachelor party is tonight and I think I will be chilling at a friends waiting for them to be done, and today I just wanna tidy up a bit, maybe start a cross-stitch. I have been wanting to get back into them for a bit now, just can't seem to find the time. Tomorrow I may have to go into work, but if I don't it will still just be a relaxing day at home. Maybe do some laundry with are insanely slow washer!

Well that is about it for me, the count down is on and I will be busy the next few weeks, but it is exciting all the same!!!

Hurricain Sunday!

Good afternoon everyone, hope you are all enjoying the weather more than me! We are sitting in a hurricain and our basement is flooding some, the power is out for alot of people and the rain just dosn't want to stop.

That being said I am in my comfy's reading and watching TV relaxing. We had a late night last night at friends and are a little sleepy today. That being said we don't like lazing around and are getting board. But thats ok!

My weigh in this week wasn`t what I wanted to see, but it`s all my own fault, and while I am not happy with it I will survive.

I want to mention congrats to Lynn Who is down 100 lbs! I am so proud and she is a huge inspiration, now if she could only lend me her motivation for a while!

Well that is it for now, just sitting through the storm!

Back down in the valley

Well I am not sure if it's the heat, or the 5 day work week, or just my eating habits this week but I am back down low in the valley of self pity!

I feel gross, I feel like I have no energy, I am so sleepy I can't even watch a TV show past 730! I want to do something exciting and fun this weekend but don't want to at all because I feel so gross!

I know that I can loose weight I know I can try to do better and loose weight and be healthy but for some reason I can't do it. It sux! I am so mad at myself and so upset I don't even know what to do.

Well I guess I can say I ranted, and I feel well not better but it's out there. And maybe I can feel better tomorrow. And maybe I will feel better next week.

A long hot day...

Well when I got to work today with the humidex inside it was 36, when I left it was 40... Yea hot. It's like a sauna only you can't get out. So needless to say it was gross. And today seemed to drag on forever. It was long and hot and gross. So now I am home and just want to lay in bed and stay cool. My only saving grace is that our bedroom is in the basement so it is nice and cool. So we may go to the beach after supper and get some icecream and then head back home and early to bed.

I love the nice weather but is sux to work in!!

A busy weekend

OK So this was my first real weekend off after my first 5 day work week!!!

And we were busy! Yesterday we headed into town to pick up some things and run some errands. Then we headed to a fundraiser for the Relay for Life, and then met up with some old friends and hit the beach. We left the house around 930, and other than a quick stop to change and drop off out buys from the city we didn't get home till about 830.

We (well hunny) wanted to stay up late, and Ive been wanting to watch the DaVinci Code again since I read the book. And we had a few drinks, while by the first one I was falling asleep and I made it about 3/4's of the way thru the second before Dean said we could go to sleep, which was about 1030!

But I was up by 730 and we have been pretty busy today and havn't stopped. I had some breakfast and we went out so Dean could practice backing up, as he takes his drivers test this week (good luck hun!). Then it was back home where I went through my clothes and changed the bed, and we worked on our song list for the wedding reception. Dean is now washing the car and I am e-mailing some ppl and working on wedding stuff (lists and whatnot)

I am hoping to go to the Beach tonight but we will see.

Need to find the motivation....

Ok so the last few days I have been totally not paying attention to what I eat. And that is a lie because I know what I am eating and how unhealthy it is for me but I can't seem to care really. But I think I know why. I am getting married in less than a month and I lost 3 lbs last week. Part of that is really good, but then I thought that if I loose too much my dress won't fit! So that is part of it. The rest of it is just there is so much going on right now that I can't get organized. I am in my new job and that is a bit stressful, and working 5 days a week now is a bit stressful too.

So here is my new commitment. I am not going to track my food until after the wedding. I am still going to weigh in once a week. And my new goal is to be in the 160's (preferably lower) by March 1st. We are going away down south then for our honeymoon and I want to look good. So that is it, I will still blog but this is about maintenance for the month and then I will get back to it.

I hope to get to the gym still but that is for stress relief not nessacarly weight loss.

So that is it, my thoughts in my head make sense!

ok, hump day!

So today is hump day! On my first full week of work, and I am already exhuasted. But I will prevail. Not much to say, my eating has sucked, and while i'm not ok with that It is all my fault. But I am going to deal with it, wow this is going to turn into a blab session which dosn't make sense, so I will leave it at that and get my thoughts together.

Just wanted to share

Hey everybody, I just wanted to share this song with you; one of my staff wrote it and it is him singing it. We work on a special care floor, so people who are confused and have dementia.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQdN9mvXiTo

Thanks guys