stress of the dress

OK so missed yesterday, nothing really interesting happened, we went out for yummy supper last night and had some drinks at home, i did pretty good, and went to the gym for an hour and a half yesterday, so i am doing good.

today was already crazy, we woke up around 8 and had some breakfast then started cleaning, now i had made plans with my aunt (maid of honer) and my mom to go dress shopping this afternoon and when i was talking to mom she backed out. Now this shouldn't have upset me as much as it did but i burst into tears when i got off the phone with her, Dean was mad at mom but i got over it, and planned some other possible plans and mom called back and changed her mind, we are close and she knows when i am upset, so now we are going dress shopping! i am very excited, and want to be happy but it's hard because i don't feel pretty all the time, and i still want to lose weight, but i know they can alter dresses so that makes me happy!